I'm Allergic to Bullshits

2011-11-07T20:36:00.002+08:00

i knoe, i shud start posting by now. its been two months of blank pages. will find a better post next time

Aku Bukan Lagi Yang Dulu

2011-09-04T20:44:00.001+08:00

Adakalanya

Nurani ini berkata

Kejayaan ini adalah milikku

Namun

Adakalanya juga

Aku bagaikan

Sudah bosan dengan perjuangan

Yang entahkan bila akan selesai

Fikirku... biarlah

Arus waktu membawaku pergi

Hanyut dalam fantasi alam

Yang belum pasti

Namun kini wahai bangsaku

Sedarkah kalian

Bahawa kini aku bukanlah

Seperti dahulu

Aku tahu

Perjuangan ini tanggungjawabku

Ia beban yang harus dipikul

Dan ganjarannya akan kuraih

Jua....kelak

Aku pasti.. kini

Aku adalah yang terbaik

Biarpun untuk kurangkul hasratku itu

Amat sukar

Amat getir sekali

Biarpun dihalang bongkahan bara api

Akan ku teruskan jua langkahku

Dengan tapak kakiku sendiri

Walau ia setinggi mana

Akan ku daki jua

Kerana matlamatku

Kejayaan adalah milikku

(Dipetik dari buku program hari anugerah kecemerlangan

SMK Batu Muda tahun 2011)

My visit to England

2011-09-03T09:39:00.002+08:00

Recently, I went to England for further study. I was in military school. at first I thought I wasnt fit enough and petite, that i havent met the physical requirement. but the instructor said it was ok, because plugging with army doesnt mean you have to be on par for a war. in a military system there are doctors, engineers, decision maker and even an accountant. so i decided to continue there. but I have to fly home within 2 month because the sponsorship board decided to. And if you noticed I even posted on my facebook info on me studying in England.. how cooooool eh.

Unfortunately it was just a dream. I dont know where the hell i got the idea of England and posting to facebook, with all those pumping and physical training. it feels so real. its like youre watching a 3D movie and the next thing you know, youre in it, starring as the main actor.weirdddd....

the boring wikipedia defines Dreams as successions of images, ideas, emotions and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages ofsleep.. yada yada yada.. buh buh ring..
i truly believe thers something behind dreams, that human had not yet explore and understand. that are influence by your daily life and what youre minds are up to.

In such cases, when youre missing someone so much and thinking of them constantly, the next thing you know, they'll appear in your dream. dreams are our half conscious mind.

Dreams can be very very convincing. dreams are apocalyptic. They can also be elusive. Some people might swear they never had one, while others have almost total recall of a great number of them and are able to tell back their dreams to others.

Apparently, we’re all quite active during sleep time. Scientists say that we sleep each night in 4 or 5, ninety-minute stages. It is during the REM (Rapid Eye Movement) stage that we do our best dreaming. We have a dream segment approximately every 90 minutes. Usually though, we won’t remember any of them unless we’ve been interrupted and awakened while they were happening.

decision science

2011-09-01T22:47:00.005+08:00

my form 6 journey has ended...
form 6 has taught me abundance of things. not only how to cope with life, but help me to grow.
after my form 5, i never really planned to go to form 6, neither did I denied the existence of form 6. I was neutral. i didnt had an opinion on STPM

now the journey has ended, and comes another phase in life. the university life. which we aren't discussing it here.
when my upu result was out, i was in a predicament. maybe bcos it wasnt my first choice. i opted for accounting at uum. instead I was granted a course, decision science. what the heck? what the hell is that.?yeah yeah. i knoe sounds odd, peculiar, not cool, not famous one,. in malay its called sains pemutusan.. i knoe it sound hilarious translating the word.. but yes the course exist.

in our country, it isnt yet recognised. at developed country, US, UK it is in the 'mainstream' course. we need decision maker in every aspect of life. whether in government sector, manufacturing, banking, investing, business and even in medical..when it comes to decision, people always thought trial and error is the best way. if u never try to work your plan, then you never know whether you'll succeed or deteriorate in your choice.. this in fact is wrong, for every decision a company or an individual have to commit, there is a scientific way to succeed, minimising the risk of failure that eventually could save billions of money, n generates billions of profits.

and it all comes down to the root of statistical, probability, mathematically.. desicion science is also known as operation research, industrial engineering and some other common terms. i havent done the complete research of this course, but im getting the idea.

some link that may be useful.

2011-09-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

the next time, you read my post, its actually an automatically post i drafted. cool eh.

another typical day

2011-08-31T20:45:00.003+08:00

this raya didnt felt like one.it was awkward, abnormal..weird.. dont guess, this is not another 'im a loser sad, pathetic thingy'. im enjoying myself being around family, visited my hometown, still receiving duit raya as people thought that i was 15.

the morning of Eid, the boys went for the raya prayers, or shud I call the MEN, theyre growing up fast. its still mint in mind the last time they were kids, i bullied them. calling them girls, mishmashing their toys at the living room n pointing to them when my parents came home. and everytime me n my sisters messed up our room, the blame all goes to the boys. how innocent of them.. IT WAS THE EASIEST WAY OUT FROM BEING SCOLD.

but this year 1st of raya there were no forgiving caremony like we casually did every year. and worst nobody attempt to seek for forgiveness..nobody i said..everyone was busy.. doing what..? i dont know... the women were busy preparing dishes for raya, the men.. i realy dont know. n people kept coming to our house, there was no time for us family alone. i really feel bad. grrrrr..... it was just another typical day of our everyday live. for record i never had a family photos since 1998. to be exact it was 1998 of raya.
i'll continue writing later

n worst. my phone had gone missing, n i dont think i received text for raya. or be sending text.

selamat hari raya~~

2011-08-25T22:34:00.001+08:00

sometimes to make people happy doesnt mean you have to leave a good impression or directly make them happy. get it? i knoe, I myself dont understand

diet la

2011-08-09T22:12:00.005+08:00

AMARAN, MEREKA YANG BERHIDUNG MANCUNG, AWAS.. HIDUNG ANDA MUNGKIN CEDERA SELEPAS MEMBACA, YANG TAK BERAPA MANCUNG MACAM AK PUN, BERHATI2..

puasa ni la, masanya kita berkumpul untuk makan bersama.. pose ni niat nak bakar lemak2 yg terkumpul lama bertahunnya.. maka setiap kali berbuka, aku akan kurangkan makanan dan nasi diisytihar sebagai musuh nombor SATU..

dan mulalah mulut mak jemah dan kak jah mengomen... "amboi sikit amik nasi, diet ke?".. kemudian terpaksalah ak menipu wajib.. dengan mengreply "hikhikhik, tak lah. nak bajet lauk untuk esk, takut abis.....".. see, ak memang baik hati, jaga perasaan org.. ko hade?. takpe2 abaikn.. kenapa ak rase kita atau sebenarnya aku je yang patut diet..

kalau korang tgk gadis2 yg pakai baju ketat, korang ingat mereka rela ke.? hatuihh... bukan disengajakan okeyh, disebabkan lemak badan yang aktif membiak menyebabkan baju yg sepatutnya longgar menjadi ketat.. kaki yang dulu klcc, sekarang dh jadi taj mahal.. huduh okeyh.. sila take note ya, gadis yang saya sdgkn citerkn ini, bkn perempuan2 yg sengajakan..

disebabkan baju dh ketat, mesti korang ckpkan.. "hek eleh dia ni... beli je la baru...".hatuiiihhh... memang la beli baru, duit satu hal, nak cari saiz satu hal.. dan apabila ko dh pegi ke kedai nak cari baju dan seluar dan pergi fitting room utk test baju.. dan dapatii dooomm, takde size.. mesti ko rase murung dan tak bermaya, mesti ko rasa im the biggest loser asia..

keduanya, kesihatan.. hatuighhhh....ko ingat tak penat jadi gemuk.. ak sejak naik berat ni, nak naik tangga satu tingkat balik bilik dah rase mengah... rasa kaki lutut ni, tertinggal kat bawah, haahhhhhh~~ semput~~.. CPR PUHLIZZ..... itu belum tua lagi, kalau esk dh tua, dgn beratnya lagi, dengan kesan kerapuhan tulang disebabkan tak minum susu anlene yg provide 50% kalsium harian wanita.. fikirkan lah.

dan akhirnya, ko kena kurus supaya ko tak disisihkan rakan2.. bila ko nak main gelongsor, tiba2 time nak turun tu ko tersekat disebabkan tak muat nk keluar lubang gelongsor.., dan geng2 mak jemah dan kak jah akan gelakkan ko dlam hati( jgn risau mak jemah dan kak jah xckp kuat2 sbb diorang pn gemuk).. mereka cume berbisik dalam hati dengan girangnya, "ish2 gemuknya, nasib baik ak xgemuk mcmtu"...

ok. inilah motivasi ak untuk kurus, nama2 di atas takde kena mengena antara yg hidup dn mati... ade sapa2 terasa tak batang hidung sakit terkena..hehehe

al-fatihah to doctor Nora

2011-08-07T21:51:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum, i knoe ive declared to stop blogging. but i cant find a way to withdraw my feelings to people. im sad and mourning.. as the above title, i would like to remit al fatihah to the lost of DR Nora.. she's a mother to my fren, a blogger full of inspirational word. the first time i read her blog, it captivated my mind. her thoughts, how she describes life beautifully. her optimistic character just vows me.. i was hoping i cud read more.

semoga beliau ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman. AL FATIHAH~

bye blogosphere

2011-07-11T18:44:00.004+08:00

hi blog, i know ive been neglecting u. its just that i found a 'life' that ive dreamed off. ive undergone a permutation of personlity. n i dont think i need u anymore. changes are sometimes good.bye for now.

2011-07-02T20:41:00.001+08:00

for no reason.. i feel happy. i dont feel like blogging.........

just feel like smiling, grinning ecstatically, showing off my braces..

its the feeling of calmness, blessed, blithe, content.............

cant find the right word
but yes

am very happy

i love myself,

yess miss khairah, i love u........... weeeee,,,,,,,,,

*ok bye*

Ak dan merah..

2011-06-02T22:56:00.003+08:00

sedang ak bersantai di tasik hijau yang permai.. burung2 berkicauan.... dgn air tasik yg mengalir deras mengeluarkan bau-bauan..perghhh.. menusuk bau dia... aroma air tasik blh buat ko lupa ingatan tahu..
abaikan cerita pencemaran alam.. hari ni ak ke tasik bkn untuk lari, bkn untuk mengumpat air tasik yang busuk, bkn juga niat nk bekerjasama dgn JAWI utk terjah drakula dan mangsanya melepaskan nafsu.. huhh tetapi untuk muhasabah diri..

korang mesti tak percaya apa ak nk kata.. ak dan merah tak dpt dipisahkn spt aur dan tebing, spt tv dan astro, bagai laptop dan internet.... sifat merah ak makin menjd2. ya ak seorng yang baran sbnrnya.. dan bahaya ble ko dpt tau, ko seorang yg baran tp tak pandai meluahkn.. org yg diam ketika marah adalah lebih bebahaya berbanding mereka yang melepaskn..

ble ko marah, byngkn la wajah ko ketika marah,, klu cun mcm ni ok gak.

nak dijadikan cerita, hari ni ak menanti seseorang yang janji nk jemput ak pulang kerja n pegi mkn. kerana ak lembu yang berpegang pada talinya, maka ak pn tunggu.. 30 minit yang pertama ak ikhlas menunggu, tapi tak juga sampai, 15 minit kemudian, tahap kesabaran ak makin tercemar, sebusuk air tasik tadi.. ak tak reti mcmn nk lepaskan, akibatnya sbb terlalu marah.... praapppp... hanfon ak menjadi taruhan... fon hasil benih duit2 yag ak semai selama 5 bln hancur begitu sahaja, pecah dicampak2, diinjak, dibaling ke anjing2..... wargghhhhhhhhhhh... ok unsur tipu disitu,, ak tercampak n pecah fon tu shj.

tahukah anda perasaan marah akan reda bila anda buat org lain marah, ataupun anda diselubungi rasa bersalah.. percayalah.. masa kecik ak dh alami.. klu kena tegur ngn mak ayah atau ak tak dpt sesuatu yang ak nak, ak akan sepahkan rumah dan menyepak segala barang... ak akan hanya berhenti bile ade barang mak ayah ak pecah... kalau ak marah ak akan diam dan tak bercakap, kalau ak marah ak akan mogok tak makan.. kalau ak marah habis bilik ak sepah dan adik beradik yg keliling ak akan segera sorokkn barang berharga... sape sangka khairah nazurah yang nampak sopan duduk besimpuh, gelak tersipu2 tknmapk gigi seorang yang baran.. waa taiko mesti la waa pemarah..

ini merupakan antara satu terapi yang sebenarnya blh membinasakan diri sendiri dan org lain.
Berdasarkan kajian yang dilakukan mendapati bahawa marah menyebabkan sesuatu kecederaan lambat sembuh. Kajian yang dilakukan oleh Universiti Ohio, AS membuktikan bahawa kesan lecur yang dialami oleh mereka yang panas baran lambat sembuh berbanding dengan mereka yang tidak panas baran. jadi kalau ko ada penaykit jantung dan suka marah2 org maka lebih parah la sakit tu..

jika anda marah maka carilah jalan memcahkan kemarahan
ajar dan kerah perasaan Marah sehingga ia tunduk patuh kpd kt. Umpama anjing perburuan yg taat patuh tidak sekali kali ingkar kpd perintah tuannya; memecahkan kemarahan bukan bererti menghilangkannya atau membuang perasaan marah sama sekali kerana perasaan marah itu sifat manusia.

kalau kita terasa nak marah org, igtlah kebaikan org tu... ingatlah bahawa sekali kita dh lepaskan kemarahan akan tertinggal kesan luka di hati orang yang dimarahi...bayangkn kt ditempat mereka, kalau kita bersalah, kita tidak suka orang memarahi kita. Maka begitulah orang lain yang melakukan kesilapan, juga tidak suka dimarahi. Tegurlah dengan lemah lembut dan kasih sayang...

kalau kita marah juga, pergilah bawa diri sebentar... regangkan otot.. ok letakkan kedua belah tangan ke belakang.. dan lompat.. ok ikut seperti saya(sambil buat aksi).. satu... dua.... tiga.....lapan.. lompat!..*apalah motif ak bgtau kat sini ya.... atau tulis blog pn blh buat ko lupa ko sedang marah.. mungkin..

sensitip.

2011-05-08T14:18:00.000+08:00

di saat korang baca entry ini, ak mungkin tidak berada di depan laptop tetapi di dapur memberi mr grey makan.. sudah menjd rutin ak merebus ikan untuk diberikan kpd mr grey kucing belakang rumah, suatu perkara yang korang patut tau tentang mr grey.. mr grey dan ak tak byk bezanya. kami tak ade jati diri.. pnh skali ak campak ikan ke luar tingkap, dan tetibe berlalu sang tikus tanpa berhati perut meratah makanan mr grey... mr grey yg berada di situ dgn takutnya lari kerana takut dengan cek ti.. huh, sungguh takde jati diri...

huh, intro di atas takde kena mengena dgn entry kali ni.. ok abaikan..

tanggal 12.4.2011, merupakan hari yg teruk bagi diriku.. ya hari yang emo bagi ak... ak telah dimarahi oleh bos dpn ramai2 staff.. sangat memalukan... walaupn muka ak nampak je taiko, tp dlm hati ade rainbow, don't judge a book by its cover... tanpa disedari, air mata ak bergenang, emosi ak... pofhhhh... dalam hati ak pujuk menenangkn diri... terserlah kepondanan ak, tercalar kehenseman ak, tergugat kekhairahan ak..
homaiiiiggoodd, tidak ak takleh menangis.. sangat tak cool..
ak blk ke ruang kerja ak, cuba melekakn diri, tp air mata ni ttp nk mengalirr... shit betul
ak pn bergegas ke toilet, sebelum tu sempat membawa timun ke toilet.. huh, jangan nk tny mn ak dpt timun, ak tgh emo ni... maka ak terduduk dlm toilet... skrg hny tinggal ak dan melati, timun yang ak beri nama.. ya ak mmg klasik... ok, ak hny buat perkara normal spt org lain dlm tandas tu dan mencuci muka, ditemani melati.

hokeyhh...huh...akhirnya lega perasaan nk menangis.. sejak akhir2 ni, ak pn xfaham knp ak sensitif dan emosi, pantang saje ditegur, rase nk nangis...

my two cents

2011-05-08T12:30:00.002+08:00

the death of bin laden is something that the world has yearn for so long.. searching for the man was an ambitious mission.
Exclusively, American army has proved to the world that they are on their best on par.. they own the most modern up-to-date devices, technology... compared to malaysian military, we are 20 years behind, even our submarine was secondhand bought...well thats not the issue..

I was appalled by Najib's jubilation, claiming that he was HAPPY..? happy on osama's death.? was this a legitimation so that he could snap pictures with Obama smiling in front of the White house, and later post on fb, so that fans will read... was this it..?.. to be frank, i hate to talk about politics.. im not on either side, i never really read about osama's history.. my teacher was right, history was told by the winning companion, we never really considered the story of the losers.

shouldnt this be a more proper phrase,
Martin Luther King, Jr said it best:

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives but I will not rejoice in the death of one, even an enemy."

lunch at cozy house

2011-05-01T18:53:00.002+08:00

di pagi ahad yang malas ini terbujur ak atas katil yang empuk, bantal yang dihiasi peta benua, sepoi2 aicocnd menodai ruang bilik dengan kesejukan, ak mematikan diri sehingga matahari meninggi jam 1 tgahari...... ble lg kn nk dpt perasaan mcmni, esk dh keje.. tetibe *baannnng**bangg*bangg* ak dikejutkan "hooii bangun le ayah nk ajak makan kt cozy house." huh.. cozy house..? baek bilik ak lg cozy(baca: selesa) tidur..*ak buat lawak, tolonglah gelak ihsan kt ak..

dalam perjalanan, borak2 dlm kete, mcmn ntah ak offer belanja makan. siap ckp ngn ma, tak pyh kluar duit ****(nama manja dirahsiakan) bawa duit ni... ohoooiii... dalam hati ak dh takut dh ni, paling kurang kluar rm300.. time nk pilih menu.. time org lain sedap2 order chicken chop, nasi goreng bandung, fish n chip, milk shake yg paling kurang rm12.50.. ni untuk 7 orang makan ni....meraung ak dlm hati..ok2 takpe sy makan beancurd=rm6.50 + air kosong=foc.. heeeeeeeee....wlupn dh bekerja, tidak le duit tu byk sgt. masih dianggap miskin.

wahhhhhhhhhhhh...........baaaaaaaaahhhhhhh......gaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.. time org lain menikmati hidangan, ak meniti masa menunggu bil sampai, dalam kepala buat calculation, stress r mcmni.... tp at the end.. nk dipendekkan cte.. time nak bayar kat kaunter... tp peliknya dia tak bagi bill, biasa akan bagi lps dh mkn2.

saya: encik, blh dapatkan bill tak? sy nak bayar dh ni...

banquet 1: encik tak payah bayar, sebab tadi orang yang duduk sblh meja encik dh tolong bayarkan..

saya: huh..? patutlah tadi org meja sebelah tu dok pandang2 *dlm hati

pelikkn.? tapi bagi ak tak la pelik sangat.. sebab apa? sebab ak rasa, sebab ayah ada.. dah selalu juga perkara macamni terjadi... klu kat masjid, lps solat jumaat tu terutamanya, kadang2 orang lalu, n masukkan duit dalam poket ayah.. kadang2 satu hari tu blh dpt rm50 atau lebih.. rupanya masih ada manusia yang prihatin..alhamdulillah

kalau ak tahu tadi, dh ku order beef steak, bersama milkshake strawberry..........

*dh kate dh, klu tukang buat sepah balik, mesti ayah ajak pegi makan tempat best2.

Amaran! entry ini dilarang baca bagi mereka yg ada darah tinggi atau sedang menghadapi stress

2011-04-24T15:42:00.003+08:00

ini kisah tuan tanah, ratu malas dan tukang buat sepah..

hari ni merupakan hari yang tidak bahagia bagi sang ratu malas kerana telah bergaduh dengan tuan tanah.. dek kerana bergaduh kempunan la sang pemalas krn hny dpt melihat santapan yg disaji oleh tuan tanah. satu perkara tentang ratu malas selain dari sifatnya yang malas dia juga keras kepala, pantang aje ditegur seminggu mogok tak makan..

peristiwa ini sume berpunca dari si tukang buat sepah yang gemar membuat sepah. si tukang buat sepah merupakan kesayangan tuan tanah.. almaklumlah anak lelaki dan sekali sekala sahaja dpt pulang ke rumah..tukang buat sepah merupakan perantau yang duk jauh nun sana demi berkhidmat sbg pelajar asrama.. maka setiap kali tukang buat sepah balik, tuan tanah akan bermanja2 dan memnuhi kehendak tukang buat sepah..

alkisahnya, pada minggu ini tukang buat sepah balik..sebelum itu, untuk makluman semua,, ratu pemalas merupakan seorang pekerja yang sangat berjaya.. dan tuan tanah pula pengurus rumah agam kami. tuan tanah buat kerja rumah dan aktiviti masak memasak harian.. cuma pada hujung minggu ratu malas membuang sifat malasnya dengan mencuci seluruh rumah agam termasuk memberi makan kepada kucing jiran selang 5 rumah.. malangnya nasib ratu malas apabila tukang buat sepah balik.. dikemasnya seluruh rumah, si tukang sepah pn membuat aktiviti membuat sepah di sekelitar ruang tamu dan dapur... ya kebiasaan tuan tanah pada hujung minggu akan beradu merehatkan mata utk mendapatkn beauty sleep... apabila bangkit je tuan tanah dari tidur terdgr pekikan suara memanggil ratu malas.. ratu malas yang baru saje on9 nk menghapdate blog yang sepatutnya tajuk lain dan bukan tajuk ni menjadi sangat marah...apa taknya.. dari pagi ratu malas dengan penuh semangat mengemas rumah dikecahkan oleh tukang buat sepah....

pengajarannya, dari kecik tuan tanah hanya mengajar tukang buat sepah membuat sepah tetapi tak ajar mengemas semula...katanya "jangan risau anakku kerana dewasa kelak ko akan berkahwin juga dgn seorang ratu malas yang akan membuat semua urusan rumah...'

jadi anda tekalah siapa ratu malas, tukang buat sepah serta tuan tanah..
hahhahaha.ok ak sgt bengang.. abaikan entry.. sape suro korang baca..

pengajarannya, kahwin bkn la untuk jadikan isteri spt org gaji.. itu hanyalah mitos kitab melayu yang diwujudkan zaman neolitik dulu..

kamu nak jadi apa.?

2011-04-14T20:48:00.011+08:00

alhamdulillah semalam selesai satu misi bantuan keamanan.. ya misi melawat sekolah...walaupun tak jadi seperti yang dirancang.. tetapi tetap rasa bahagia bila dapat jumpa orang2 yang pernah jadi sebahagian daripada kita...cikgu..! tingkatan 6 byk mengajar aku erti kehidupan, kesusahan n bagaimana rasanya jadi seorang yang gagal, seorang yang tak pandai, seorang yang tak berjaya menyelesaikan rumus matematik, org yang selalu berada di bawah, n biasa la ble kt tak pandai kt bkn lah fevret cikgu2 dan sekolah.

orang selalu kata hidup seperti roda... tp diri ak kali ni roda tak berputar, static di bwh.. hee.. bila sebut static inilah yg ak belajr dari ilmu fizik.... tentang hidup.. roda takkan bergerak selagi kita tak kenakan daya, daya disini langkah usaha kt... first law.. n bila dh gerak kt kena pecut, sebab dalam dunia semua orang dh mula gerak..disini la kt kena tingkatkan usaha dari masa ke masa,...klu kt tak pecut kita akan ketinggalan.. 2nd law.... ble kt dh ade usaha n dh pecut. for every action there is a reaction.. n setiap usaha kt akan adanya ganjaran... third law..

ok anak2 jgn tidur ya ini bkn blog cikgu fizik... anda masih di blog khairah nazurah..

bercakap tentang sekolah benda yang sering dibincangkan ialah cita2.. rasenya setiap tahun orang akan tny kt.. ak pelajar yang tipikal juga punya cita2.. gigih ak memerah otak memikirkan cita2 ak dari zaman kanak2 sehingga la sekarang... banyak rupanya koleksi cita2 ak.. ni ringkasannya..

5 TAHUN: ak teringin sgt jadi duyung.. anda mungkin gelak, tetapi zaman tu duyung sgt awesome di mata ak.. ya cter little mermaid sesuatu kemestian ak, story book little mermaid menjadi pujaanku, barbie separuh bogel menjadi teman tdo ak... erkk.. ok scary nye

6,7,8 TAHUN : zaman ni ak tak ubah seperti kanak2 lain yang ingin jadi doktor guru engineer lawyer.. pengaruh orang dewasa masa ni sgt kuat..

9,10 TAHUN: *ak tak mampu igt

11 TAHUN: yg ni agak pelik.. seorang pencacai najis.. walaupun nampaknya hina tapi itulah keje yg mulia... ya masih segar di ingatan cebisan surat khabar roti canai kisah org angkat najis ni terjumpa jongkong emas dan menjadi kaya... masuk paper tuu...ko ade.? hade ke?

12 TAHUN: tahun ini ak menyimpan hasrat menjadi seorang wartawan, tetapi dibantah keras oleh ayah,, atas sebab musabab yang tak dikenalpasti yang mungkin semasa tu hny ayah je yg fhm knp dia taknak bagi...

13, 14, 15, 16 TAHUN: sejak peristiwa tu ak tak pernah simpan cita2.ak hny ikut flow.. masa pilih aliran form 4 pn sbb result straight A pmr, maka dicampakkan ak ke kelas sains...

17 TAHUN: hahahahahaha* ak nk gelak dulu jap ya..hahahahaha..sambung183xhaha... ok selesai,.. ya ak volunteer jadi seorang tentera.. ntah hantu jepun mana yang rasuk ak taktau la... nekad tu.. SAYA KHAIRAH NAZURAH BINTI KARIM DARI KOMPENI ALFA LAPOR DIRI TUAN!!! ~~tuan kacak tuan, boleh saya ngorat tuan?~~

18 TAHUN: ya ak dh masuk ke alam dewasa, makin gelisah dan gabrah sebab masih tak tau nk jadi apa.. tiba2 fius2 dlm otak ak bersambung(baca sambil membayangkan iklan susu bayi part yg sel2 otak dia ade link) dan terbonjol idea untuk menjadi seorang aktuaris.. mungkin disebabkan duit n ak rase cool ble nk terangkn kt orang apakah itu aktuari... terserlah kematangan ak yg penuh bervisi...ya khairah ko memang hebat bab show off ni..

19 TAHUN: masa ni makin menjadi2 kegilaan ak meroyan, tambahan pula masa exam penting STPM... ak mengidam menjadi pakar ekonomi.. hampir hari2 baca buku ekonomi sbb dh cinta sgt.. disamping tu ramai yg taktau aku masih sygkn subjek sains, dalam diam menyimpan hasrat menjadi seorang geologist.. tetapi disbb ak tau aku memang takleh bawa subjek sains, maka terkubur la cita2 tu.. tertanam di juram lombong yg tandus yang memang klu dah masuk takleh keluar.. seterusnya ak ingin menjadi penjaga zoo supaya ak blh gosok gigi harimau hari2. nampak mcm klaka tapi hakikatnya ak serius dalam soal ini.... selepas itu, ak juga menyimpan hajat menjadi seorang tukang masak di atas kapal terbang. yalah korang pernah terfikir tak siapa yang sediakan makanan atas kapal terbang.. takkan pramugari yg muka cantik klu pegang senduk patah kuku tu kn, mestilah ade chef dia... cool kn... sbnrnya ada lagi cita2 ak tahun ni. , cumanya disebabkan ak dh kehabisan penggunaan penyambung ayat (seterusnya, disamping itu, selain itu...) jadi berakhir lah disini...

dan terkini cita2 ak ingin menjadi seorang akauntan..
semasa melawat sekolah, cikgu ada meminta ak bagi motivasi utk pelajar stpm tahun ni..memikirkan situasi di atas, ak rasa elok la kn ak mengundur diri dari memberi ceramah.. makin sesat diorang nnt... kehkehkeh..

peraturan no 1

2011-04-09T08:41:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakahtuh..

kehadapan para peminat yang disayangi, terima kasih kerana sudi membaca laman blog ini dan sentiasa meminati saya. sebelum saya meneruskan bicara saya ingin memohon maaf kerana tidak lama lagi blog ini akan dilupuskan.. jadi saya menasihatkan kepada anda semua supaya tidak terlalu fanatik dengan blog saya supaya jiwa anda tidak meracau disebabkan ketiadaan saya di dunia blog ini..*orait blh bgegas ke tandas terdekat utk memnutahkan apa yg terbuku

kahkahkah..

ok ak dh pandai mengarut.. minggu lepas sesuatu yang pelik berlaku yang juga sesuatu yang menarik.. ceritanya bermula apabila ak menerima sms panjang dari ayah. janggal rasenya, sbb biasa klu reply msg 'k' atau 'tq'. tp kali ini, ' balik awal hari ni ade meeting family'.... panjang tuuuu..
dalam fikiran ak dh mcm2 perkara bermain.. apakah terjd sbnrnya.. ak ade buat salah ke? atau mungkin kakak ak nk kawin? ok menakutkan.... atau mungkin ayah nk bacakan wasiat harta n mungkin ak pemegang terbesar.. erkk ok statement yg keji..ataupn ayah ak terjumpa **** dlm bilik ak...terbongkar la aktiviti ak selama ini.
jeng jeng jeng hatiku berdebar, nk jwb paper kimia pn tak segabrah ni....

tepat jam 8.21pm, kami 7 beranak berkumpul di ruang makan.. semua terdiam

*potong scene perbincangan*.

setelah 5 jam berdiskusi (kejamnya 5 jam, 30 minit je) intipatinya, ayah ak suruh ak kongsi bilik dgn kak biela, betul la sangkaan ak, ayah terjumpa B*BI dalam bilik ak.. kehkehkeh.. katanya bilik ak dh ngupe kandang ****... yalah ak tak sempat nk kemas sbb keje pagi balik ptg, takde masa. penat letih lenguh sengal penat letih lenguh sengal penat... tambahan pula ada tetamu yg nk tumpang n biela pn bkn slalu balik rumah.

malangnya penderitaan ak berkongsi bilik tidak berakhir begitu saje.. ak dgn bijaknya telah membuat perjanjian

saya: memandangkn kt share bilik, meh kt buat peraturan. sape punya baju sepah kat lantai 20

sen...barang sendiri sepahkat lantai 20 sen, bantal atau selimut takde atas katil 20 sen, baju kotor tak bawa turun seminggu 20 sen..

biela: fine. :)

the first two week, memang kemas.. tak sangka ak ni berdisplin orangnya.. tp masuk minggu ketiga biela hulur rm20 sblm dia balik asrama, kebetulan ak pn nk gerak pergi keje.. dgn gembiranya ak menerima. lalalala~~~ tp ble ak balik je.. mak aihhhhhhhh... ini bkn b**i je duduk... tok nenek B*bi pn tumpang bersama jirannya ngimau .. jadi kt faham la apa makna nilai rm20 tu kn.?? hahahaha.... klu ak byr rm200 blh buat sepah setahun tak...?
haha....so minggu dpn kena fikrikan peraturan baru.... hmmm...

lps meeting family tu, ayah buat lawak

ayah: klu nk sgt sepahkan baju tu, kt bako.. kt bako je baju tu, kt bako..

errkkk... ak n adik beradik yg lain dh confuse ni nk gelak ke tak.. muka serius bengis org ayah tu... layan je la..

me find myself

2011-03-31T22:18:00.004+08:00

im back on track... the root to why i associated to blogosphere, to improve my english language.. its just that when writing in english, would mean your expressions are limited.. imagine mocking someone, n translating 'pukimak' would be an absurd... erkkk dont take too harsh, just an example.

painstakingly, i managed to discover myself, what i am worth. the journey of finding who I am. In today's hectic world, people often experience a sense of losing one's self. the truth is you won't find yourself once you start searching., the deeper you analysis the more tangled you'll be. this indeed is a fact. btw before you proceed im warning you readers, this is another lame boooo--ring and over rated entry of 'I'm a loser thing'. so you are welcome to press the [x] button.

recently, i took up jogging as my routine, where sharp at 6.25pm i'll troll my way to tasik sri gombak. well to be frank the first 2 round was weary, exhausted, tiring,dead sushi.. through this process i'm aware of my weakness.. for every run, i'll halt halfway at every landmark i aimed to end my run. its like this for example, i'll tell myself.'run till you pass the dating couple kissing'..(shit those bitch n vampire gave me eyesore) but i ended up running halfway n stop. see this depict that im a person that gives up easily seeing obstacle that seems imposibble even before attempting.
so i decided to use a different approach for experiment.. the next day i ran, but this time i ran whilst focusing my eye on the ground. n not looking forward, n i took my step... n you guess.. i was running.. running n kept on running.. until my heart was pumping vigorously, my face turned red, n my knees felt wobbly. i was forrest gump without the beard. finally i stop. i ran 25 km non stop. ok that one is a big lie. hee.. the truth is it was a still a 2 round run, but i didnt stop halfway like the one i did, eager to pass landmark.

this point out that most people are afraid of failing, they often follow a regime to avoid any risk taking.. most people are being too organised until at one point when they visualise their plan are not working they often get upset, dismay n result in broken heart. they'll stop believing their stance, they'll stop making any effort, waiting untill the sky is falling.. this is life, well specifically for me it is.

sometimes finding yourself doesnt mean you have to be someone perfect or having awesome personality or finding only your strength.. fyi they will be no winners if it wasnt for the glory losers.. but most importantly how you see yourself. i maybe a person that have not been contributing enough for society, school or teachers n people often overlooked me as someone known to an organisation. im always that stranger retreating from society or the minor group, the nobody, or should I call ANONYMOUS. for me i dont hope people to remember me, but one thing for sure i will never forget those who i met, who coloured my life. to you, you n even you *pointing fingers*, you are always appreciated... just to remind *you*, my name is khairah nazurah., im not a stranger. n i will always be that person that tries my best at lending hand.

Saya bukan org dewasa

2011-03-19T09:20:00.003+08:00

pofhhhhhhhhh..............13x.......*meniup dgn kuat blog yang sudah berhabuk..

sudah genap sebulan setengah aku bekerja.. Alhamdulillah perasaan bekerja...ada feel menteri2 rasanya... mana taknya, pergi dan balik kerja, ma saya hantar.. makan lunch ayah bagi duit... pegi kluar sabtu ahad ~~berjoli,~~ minta ayah duit... sungguh tak dewasa. duit gaji tu duduk sopan2 je dlm bank... kuikuikui.. ok yg membaca ni blh dtg rumah tuntut belanja makan..

mcm menteri kita juga.. duit gaji sudah banyak.. tapi elaun untuk diorang aje, mak aihhh... elaun melancong, elaun kereta, elaun menderma pn ade... yalah kn sememangnya mereka layak sbb diorang kerja pn byk, takpe, dah kata duit rakyat didahlukan, pencapaian diutamakan.....ikut je la..jangan nk pertikaikan.

berbalik kepada dunia pekerjaan.. ramai yg kata....'woooo khairah dh bekerjaya...*ok ak tipu, sbnrnya ak yg ckp..abaikan... sejujurnya orang dewasa ni tak lah sehebat mana.. mungkin sebab ak bekerja dlm environment pejabat jadi lebih jelas dan nyata..

masa kita kanak2, bila tgk mak ayah kt buat baik cth solat, kt sibuk2 kt tepi tu nk ikut solat....
tp bila dah dewasa, nak solat subuh pn mak jerit2 suruh bangun, tp tidak lah bangunnya...(mcm dh blh teka la kan siapa orgnya.)

masa kt kanak2 kt elok je berkawan, bermain bersama walaupn berlainan bangsa. berlainan latar belakang..
tp ble dewasa kt dh pandai melabel diri dan org lain sebagai melayu, cina atau india.. .. dah mula dh nk bandingkn 'kasta'.. ko pembantu ak engineer.

masa kt kanak2 tak wujud perkataan "MALAS' dalam kamus hidup kt, kdg2 tu klu org lain nk tlg siapkan homework pn kita marah tak bagi..
tp ble dh dewasa mula la, ada keje banyak sikit.... cakap pn banyak sikit...

masa kt kanak2, klu kena marah dengan mak ayah, kt akan menjerit atau menangis.. lima minit kemudian datang balik minta mak kt susu tanpa rasa malu.
tp ble kt dewasa, mak ayah kt tegur je.. mula la memberontak, bermasam muka berhari2, mula la amik dadah, rokok dan melibatkan diri dgn berbagai aktiviti sosial yg tidak sihat dgn alasan lpskan stress kunun....

masa kt kanak2, klu kt tak suka ngn kwn tu atau makcik2 atau pakcik2 yg suka menyakat, kt takde pn bermuka2 atau mengumpat diorang... klu kt tak suka, kt tunjuk je tak suka...
tp bila dh dewasa knp perlu untuk bermuka2 dan bercakap2 dgn gang kt dibelakang.. pastu mulalah tercipta puak2 n nama2 kumpulan..
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~ bila tiba bab ni mula la ak nk emosi ni....
dududuuddaadadadda...... *fullstop*

dah, ak ni nk pergi berkebun..selamat tinggal.

hari yang indah

2011-02-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

dah lama rasaenya aku tak buat post yang membangga diri. asyik ak je terpaksa baca blog orang lain yang membangga diri.
hari ini ak dah dapat lesen L utk driving class. ak dapat cikgu tan yang berumur 65 tahun ak malas nk describe lebih2.korang bayang je la kn jackie chan pencen yg tak jaga diet dan rambut yang dimamah usia.
so track bermula di kawasan segambut. mula2 tu tak confident nk bawa.. pegang stering tangan berpeluh2.. ~~air peluh tu klu ditakung blh la kot buat air kangkang~~ . tapi dh lama2 dh steady, rase seronok spt kanak2 mendapat lolipop.

dengan riangnya ak drive... lalalala~~ sambil menikmati pemandangan semulajadi. Tengahari tu memang takde traffic wlupn hujung minggu dan cuaca pn agak baik, dengan matahari yang menyinar ala2 manja dan tersenyum kepadaku. dan awan menari2 melukis berbagai bentuk di langit.. memang bahagia..

dan kemudian lampu merah pn bertukar hijau, lampu hijau pn bertukar kuning, lampu kuning pn bertukar merah dan bertukar purple* utk describe masa yg berlalu*...tetibe ekhkhhhkhhkh*buyi brek mengejut...ak brek dengan tiba2 betul2 depan lampu isyarat hijau ... belakang tu pula ade bas rapidKL, memang terbaik.! kena hon, nasib baik bas tu mengelak ke kiri n takde kereta sebelah kiri,, kalau tidak, dh arwah la ak ni n tak sempat la nk tulis post ni..

Mr Tan: Cilaka, You mau mati ka.? You mau mati, you mati sorang2 saya mahu hidup...*sambung mencarut dlm bahasa cina..

Aku: ala, uncle pn suda tua mehh(dlm hati)

hahahhahahahah(bagi ak habis gelak dulu) hahahhahahhahhahahaha.

ok. sebenarnya ak berhenti bukan sbb ak suka2, bkn juga sbb ak terkejut, bkn juga sebab ak terdengar suara ghaib, tetapi utk beri laluan orang melintas.. ya kawan2 tgk murninya ak... cuma silap timing je la. sbb masa tu lampu hijau n masa tu juga org tu bukan sedang melintas, tapi ade kat pavement tu tgh tunggu lampu merah.. pengajarannya klu nk buat baik tu biar la bertempat, dan janganlah sbbkn kt nk buat baik pd org, org lain yg jadi mangsa...

2011-02-16T19:15:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry i gave you hopes
i'm sorry for my fake promises.
i'm sorry for all the falseness.
i'm sorry for not repaying your love, your time, your money invested for me.. your constant advices.
i know all my disguise had build a mountain of expectant.

Just so you know, i'm not that strong person that i'd used to be..
i'm a failure running away from reality..
a loser retreating from a war.
a traitor starting a battle with myself..
yet whether who wins the battle, there will always be one side losing.
worst the creep will be me..defeated by my own enemy, 'faith'..

if i knew how the story ends,
I would never seek for this role.
but what I chosen had taken me to a road of no u-turn.
the path that tangled and strangled me.
im suffocated by my own shadow

even for a road of no u-turn
external voices whisper to me..
'go off the road'..

argghh!!!. a tense week for me..i need tranquility, i need drugs or maybe a lending ear to share my dismay..
nehhh.. i choose u MR DRUG.

no pain no gain no braces

2011-02-09T20:54:00.001+08:00

I'm in great pain. Physical pain. It is unbearable. i can't even have my quality sleep. I found myself waking up from my sleep every hour because of it. I'm in pain while typing this. While eating. While walking. While in work. I don't show it to others, but sometimes it exceeds what I can hold back. This results in grim faces, taut jaws and a serious expression.

At home I try to do other actions to distract me from the pain. I tap my trusty cane, but it could not withstand the force of the tapping that its handle is coming off. I couldn't bite myself; the tightening of my jaws because of this bloody useless braces is killing me. added that i have ulcer. What I really need right now is a chemically induced coma... doooom
pass me steroid pls.. urghhh

selamat pagi, boleh sy bantu

2011-02-03T00:38:00.008+08:00

abaikan tajuk di atas, ak mmg fail bab bagi tajuk ni.
woohoo...esk cuti raya cina, bgs negara ni dipenuhi cuti2 satu malaysia. bermakna esk ak tak keje sehingga minggu dpn. tak sangka rupanya life org dewasa ni sgt tidak hebat n memenatkn. kadang2 tu, klu dh banyak keje nk lunch pn tak selera, tp lps dh habis keje pukul lima. dapat je makan mmg serupa anak hanhan hini kelaparan.
mesti korang tertny2 kan apa pekerjaan si ~~kera~~ khairah ni.. tak, ak tipu je, ak tau korang sbnrnya tak tertny2 pn. ahhh. persetankan sume itu. mari sini ak bgtau sesi temuduga ak sbg receptionist dan tips menyebabkan ak berjaya menuju ke'gemilang'an. (jgn pertikaikn, nama syarikat tu mmg gemilang)

the interview was held in both bahasa n english.
(akibat dari kepenatan dan kesan dadah jenis paracatemol yg ak br ambil td, ak tidak dpt meneruskan post ni dlm english. minta ampun)

#tips 1 be a good actor.

Dalam dunia ini, hny kira 8.9% sahaja populasi manusia yang sempurna atau cantik dipandang. Tetapi kebanyakan manusia adalah sederhana. jadi jangan lah pandang ketidaksempurnaan anda sbg suatu yg blh menjatuhkan keyakinan diri anda. berlakon la spt anda diva popular mahupn nyah melerts sbb dua golongn ni mempunyai confident yg sgt tinggi. walaupn diri anda tidak suka berhias atau makeup atau muka anda kerap berminyak n berjerawat ataupn foundatiom tak rata(lbh2 pula describe diri sendiri), anda kena juga berlakon menjadi org yg rajin menjaga muka n bermakeup. sila la belajar. termasuklah berlakon menjadi confident, sbb sy tau kebanyakan kt ni pondan sbnrnya. eye contact jgn lupa, anggap je la ini sesi anda menipu mak ayah utk keluar ngn kekasih gelap/berkulit cerah. ak yakin mesti ramai terer bab ni.

#tips 2 sell yourself/blow your own trumpet

ini mmg penting, mesti buat interviewer teruja. bgtau segala aktiviti yg anda sertai dgn cara yang sangat berlagak. bgtau segala skill yg ade. sbb mereka akan memperkecilkn anda. bersedia untuk menepis kelemahan anda dgn kekuatan dlm bidang yg lain. jgn lupa buat kajian mengenai post yg diminta n syarikat sekali. masukkan pdpt anda ttg isu semasa. ini akan membuatkan interviewer fikir anda ~~sgt genius~~ serius untuk jwtn itu.

#tips 3 be humble and straight

kdg2 org yg straight ni menarik personalitinya. ya, sy sbnrnya nk puji diri sendiri. *gelak setan* sbb bisasanya tiba kat satu point ak tak sengaja jd org yg straight n blank. ak mmg lambat nk tangkap lawak, lg2 kalau org tu kenakan ak. ko bagi la tau lawak tu tiga kali. kali keempat baru ak gelak.
satu lagi tips bab temuduga, jangan la tersengih2 sumbing atau tersipu2 sbb interviewer ni akan menyangka anda terencat akal. barang diingat, klu interviewer buat lawak anda WAJIB gelak. ini membuatkn dia merasa dihargai.

#tips 4 manipulate facts

inilah senjata kepada kejayaan anda, memutar seperti karpal singh.ak bg contoh: ko nk jual kopi. pastu ade customer dtg, lebih kurang mcmni.

penjual: encik moh le beli kopi ni

encik rozmey: apa spesialnye kopi ni?

penjual: kopi ni sbnrnya takde la brape sedap encik, tp khasiat dia perghh, boleh menguatkan tenaga batin, encik bgtau je part bdn mn encik nk terangkat. kopi ni pasti membantu mengembalikan tenaga n ketegangan.

lebih kurang la ko putar, bgtau satu sudut kelemahan, tp ko cover dgn segala cara ko nk yakinkan yg ko akan berikn terbaik habis.

#tips 5 literate more than one language

boleh menguasai berbagai bahasa menunjukkn bahawa tahap IQ anda lebih tinggi berbanding mereka yg mempunyai satu bahasa shj. ak bkn nk racist di sini, tp disbbkn ak cina negro. maka ak tekankn kt sini mengapa cina lebih pandai dan terel dan lebih berjaya dari bangsa lain. sbb rata2 mereka blh menguasai sekurang2nya dua bhs dgn baik.

jgn lupa practice dpn cermin, practice sampai cermin tu dh blh berckp ngn ko.
p/s wlupn ak dh berjaya lepasi interview, tp ak belum lps lg bab bersosial dgn staff lain. i dnt enjoy the silence

kosa kata hari ini:
hanhan hini=babi versi sopan

for my sad friends

2011-01-20T12:39:00.003+08:00

this is actually a serious post, so before you read please follow these instructions:
right click HERE, click Open in New Tab.
right click HERE, click Open in New Tab.
go to each tab and make sure they're doing what they're supposed to be doing at the same time. let them stream
it's called atmosphere. it might be also called overdone, but if you're by yourself it's ok to be a drama queen sometimes. i've decided that.

ok, you may proceed.

i have some sad friends.
if you think this might be you I'm thinking about, then it is more than likely that it is you I'm thinking about.

i read a post you wrote recently about how hectic and hassle life was, i remembered about your long wait last week for something that you were hoping so much, i was thinking about the journey you've been on this past year, a conversation we had via instant message the other day, the thing that you want that you can't have, the disappointment about how things have been going, the worry about the future, the loneliness, how tired you are of where you are, how you don't know how to get to where you want to be, that really unfortunate thing that happened, how simply straight up stressed out you are.

i'm being vague, but that's on purpose.

i would like to gather you all up in a big sad group and empty a dump truck full of all the things that would make you happy again right down on your very deserving heads. gently, though, so as not to crush you.

but if life were like that, if i had a magic dump truck, you wouldn't need Allah. and you probably wouldn't know how much other people care about you either.

things will get better. you're not in your world alone, everyone has gone through those misery.. for now, you can do like i do when i'm sad: i get really dramatic about it and lay down on the floor in the middle of the room so i can see the whole ceiling and i listen to mellow music and i pretend i'm in a movie scene, at the part right before everything gets resolved. that's what the above links are for, if you want to give it a shot.

if you'd rather talk, i'm good for that too.

Nama saya Kera.?

2011-01-14T15:50:00.002+08:00

Nama ak sering dievolusikan. bermula dgn KHAIRAH menjadi KHAIRIAH kepada kayra>>kra>>kerah>>kera. last2 ak yg dipilih sbg kera.

Berbangkit kisah nama ni, disebabkan adik telah menukar namanya di facebook dan di ~~dada-dada~~ buku teks dan rujukan daripada KHAIR menjadi KAER. ya saya tahu, adik sy ni sbnrnya nk tiru gaya kakak dia yg cool lg kreatif yang telahpn mencipta ejaan yg lebih moden KHAIRAH>>KAYRA.
akibatnya dia telah dimarahi oleh ayah.

Ayah: Hey, kamu ni memandai tukar nama kaer tu knp.? ntah2. nama tuhan yahudi ke. elok la tu

orang lain panggil kaer.
Kaer: *diam*

Kayra: laa.. sama je pn panggilnya. cuma ejaan je berbeza. kan.? (org lain kena marah, org lain

menyibuk)

*cut scene, berlaku pertengkaran dan sedikit ceramah agama.*

Sebenarnya boleh nak gunakan nama timangan.. masyarakat zaman dahulu kala lagi sudahpun menggunakan nama samaran. contohnya.. nama tok janggut,tok gajah dan lain-lain lagi… tu semua nama samaran.. kenapa mereka lebih gemar gunakan nama samaran? kerana dengan nama ni lebih menunjukkan kekutan mereka. ye la.. nama tu merupakan trademark dan first impression…takkan nak letak Hang Labu pulak en. Contohnya, Pahlawan Pasir Salak... Dato Maharaja Lela (Pandak Lam).. org dengar pn gerun je..

zaman skrg pula, nama samaran ni menjadi trend orang-orang terkenal dan artis... macam-macam nama yang bombastik dan sedap bunyinya digunakan…kenapa mereka lebih gemar gunakan nama samaran??? sebab nama juga, salah satu cara mempromosikan diri…misalnya… kalau korang nampak satu album kat kedai… kulit album tu memang dh ganas dan kena dengan minat kt.. memang nampak sgt album tu album rock kapak yang boleh dilayan.. tapi bila anda baca nama artis dia.. Ayu Melati Kenchanna.. mak aihhhhh.... fius2 otak kepala terus hang sekejap. ni album rock ke? dondang sayang...?

Tp tak semestinya kt orang2 biasa yg tidak terkenal tak blh gunakan. kalau dah nama tu panjang sangat sampai 5 patah perkataan..contohnya, 'Siti Noorul Khairatul Khatijah Tan Tin Tun'. takkan la dia begitu kejam nak suruh panggil Siti Nurul Khairatul Khatijah Tan Tin Tun setiap kali jumpa. belum sempat nak sampaikan hajat nk jumpa td, panggil nama je dh tak cukup satu nafas.. oleh itu, eloklah pakai nama samaran.

Dan juga nama samaran atau nama sebenar adalah penting. kerana nama itu juga merupakan doa buat kita..Ni antara perkongsian cerita dengan seorang kawan:

Same thing happen to my niece, masa baru-baru lahir dulu…dia dinamakan NORWATI. Seminggu my niece yang masih baby ni menangis tak henti-henti. Kakak I risau sangat-sangat, even doctors pun tak tahu nak buat apa. So, at last call our own ustaz…then dia cakap,
“Mengapa letak nama Norwati yang Nor bermaksud Cahaya, cantiklah tapi Wati tu Zina…jadi Norwati, maksudnya CAHAYA ZINA!”
….kakak I macam nak terpengsan dengar Ustaz punya explaination. So, dalam masa itu jugalah, nama my niece ditukarkan kepada NORHAYATI yang bermaksud Cahaya Hidup, dan Alhamdulillah, masa itu jugalah dia terus senyap dari menangis…

ayah ak pn sama mcmtu, org kampung tak panggil karim sebaliknya memanggil choy. pak choy, tok choy. sbb masa kecil dia slalu sakit. kadang2 kt susah nk percaya kepercayaan2 mcmni, tp hakikatnya mmg wujud. mungkin nama tu terlalu berat bg seseorang, dengan itu mereka terpaksa menukar nama.

Begitu juga bagi bloggers dan penulis yang menggunakan nama pena ataupn nama samaran. biarlah nama tu elok sikit. contohnya Gadis malang, Lia loner, Gadis gemuk, Miss kecewa, Ida sepi, lonely man, - SEMUA nama-nama ini yang memang kita faham dan tahu…membayangkan kegagalan serta membawa aura negatif dalam hidup. Lagi kita pakai nama-nama yang malang, kecewa, sepi dan seumpamanya…kita akan PASTI bertambah gagal. Kalau malang, bertambah malang, kalau kecewa bertambah kecewa dan kalau sepi lagilah berkali-kali ganda sepi. Kemudian anda tertanya-tanya mengapa lah jodoh aku tak sampai-sampai?, mengapalah aku selalu dikecewakan? tentulah sbb ia dh menjadi doa.

Cuba tukar kepada, Mr Right, atau Ieja happy, Lovely girl, Gadis Cantik, Im In love, Puteri Kayangan dan sebagainya yang membayangkan kecantikan dan kejayaan, insyaAllah…nama ia satu doa buat kita.

cuba amati betul2 nama anak dalam surat beranak ni... BELOM BERI NAMA...hahaha

Boleh pula en mcmtu..kalau nk tau, itu surat beranak mak ak.. hahhahahahha*gelak2 sambil guling*

~~BELOM BERI NAMA~~ SIti Hawa Bt Mohd Ariff..

Cuba bayangkan time cg yg nk bacakan fotokopi surat beranak nk pulangkan kpd muridnya.

Cikgu: Siti Aminah bt Ruslan, Che Pah Bt Che Am, hah..? Belom Beri Nama.? (Nak2 masa tu cg India yg bacakan sbb mak ak pn dulu sek convent)

Dah2. gelak sikit2 je. tu mak ak korang gelakkan tu.. beragak2 sikit ya.

A message from adulthooders

2011-01-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

Hello 2011..! I hope its not too late too wish a HAPPY NEW YEAR.(since I left school, i never bothered to check the calender)

and..and.. i'm 20.!

Welcome to adulthood..

Everyday we learn something new, This is how we grow

this is what i learned last week:

Rule no 1 of adulthood: Adults are always stress, even over small matters.

Oh... Mr adulthood please be nice to me.

i'm really counting on you.

love me.

Jangan Baca, Ini untuk Mak Ayah saya baca sahaja

2011-01-06T23:41:00.007+08:00

Dear Ayah n Umi,

I khairah ~~Knightley~~ Nazurah with great regret and sorrow that I’m writing to you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend, Meng because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you.*potong scene 18SX* were in love and did much as an adult couple,

I have been finding real passion with Meng and he is a gentleman and so nice.

But I knew you would not approve of him because obviously his not a muslim, and all his piercing, tattoos, bling2 dog tag; rugged, torn motorcycle jeans and the fact that he is much younger than I am. But it’ s not only the passion...I'm sorry to say, Ayah I'm pregnant.

Meng promised that we will be very happy.

He rents a house at kampung batu dua in the woods and he has supplied tonnes of foods in case were out of stock, we don't need to go anywhere.We share a dream of having many more children.

Meng has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn’t really hurt anyone. We’ll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstasy.

In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Meng can get better. He deserves it.

Don’t worry Ayah. I’m 20 and I know how to take care of myself.

Someday I’m sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know your grandchildren.

Love, Your Daughter Khairah Knightly Nazurah(tu middlename ak korang je yg taktau)

PS. Ayah, none of the above is true. I’m over at Maktok’s house.

I Just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my STPM result. That’s on the coffee table.

I love you.

Call me when it’s safe to come home…

Haha. yeahhhhhhhh ini persediaan menghadapi apa2 bencana yang bakal mengundang apablia result STPM ak kluar nnt....ya sy tau, anda mesti nk ckp, khairah seorang yg genius dan kreatif lagi bagus(sila masukkan kepala anda di mana2 mangkuk tandas awam skrg)

Pagi ini, ak telah melawat ke sekolah untuk memulangkan buku ekonomi pada cikgu. selain itu, terjumpa cikgu kimia..haduihh,, tiba bab kimia ak terus lemah..
Soalan pertama cikgu kimia: Khairah ok tak paper kimia, agak2 blh lulus tak..?
haihh... ak taktau nk jwb apa, jantung ak ni dh terlompat2 dh nk kluar.. tu belum dia tny blh dpt kimia A tak.? kalau tidak, mesti jantung ak terloncat keluar dari kerongkong terus ke mulut kerana malu dengan tuannya yang memilih untuk gagal kimia..
Ya. kawan2.. khairah seorang yg gagal kimia.. Ak kuciwa kerana takdapat nk mempertahankan legasi Mrs Irene, cikgu kimia yang tersohor dan disayanagi oleh semua penghuni smss termasuklah pakcik DM serta pakcik Abu sekuriti guard.... yeeehhaaa..

Indonesia has crossed the line

2011-01-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

FAM's site has been hacked.!!
Sufficiently, it is with no doubt, we can track the culprit.

Malingsia is a sarcastic slang for Malaysians. originally combined from two words "Maling" (Javanese, meaning "thief") and "Malaysia.
Malaysia keeps claiming Indonesia's national cultures as Malaysia's belonging, that's the etymology of the word Malingsia.

well in this case, I'm not on either side. I think both country, Malaysia and Indonesia has its iniquity,
The denial of Indonesia that Malays were originated from Indonesia is unreasonable, or should I say RIDICULOUS. Accusing that we stole their culture and heritage, alleging that our National Anthem were adapted from one of their songs. yeahhh right... Not exactly but the process of assimilation that took place would be more accurate. Its Obvious that Malays are the same ethnic as Indonesia and even most of our ancestor were originated from Kepulauan Indonesia. Even a school kid can explain this (those who learn sejarah perhaps).

The Indonesians accuse Malaysia of stealing their song Terang Bulan and turning it into our national anthem, Negara Ku. They sure are mistaken and should therefore apologise to Malaysia for pelting our embassy in Jakarta with rotten eggs.
Malaysia actually stole the song from Hawaii, not Indonesia, and the original song is called Mamula Moon. It looks like the Indonesians also stole this song, just like Malaysia did.

The first time they heard the tune, now known as that of Negaraku, was in Mahe, one of the Seychelles islands, where their father, the former Sultan of Perak, lived in exile. They said the song was very popular there and very often played by a French band which usually played a variety of songs and held concerts for the people of that island. It was believed that the melody of the song was composed by a French musician named Pierre Jean de Beranger who was born in France in 1780 and died in 1857. According to Raja Kamarulzaman’s story, the song was introduced by an opera group from Indonesia during a show in Singapore. Over a short span of time the song became very popular in Singapore and was given the name Terang Bulan. Even after the song had become the tune for the Perak State anthem, it was still played at social functions. It remained as such until it became the tune for the Malaysian National anthem named Negaraku.

Certain Indonesian reaction of attacking Malaysia for me is a stupidity. Go and learn more History.

Imagine this happening in the outside world.

British man: Hey, focking America, don't speak our language(English), invent your own bloody language *In British accent*

Chinese from the big land of China: Hey you Malaysian(refering to malaysian's chinese), don't imitate our dragon dance its our culture *in chinese language of course*

Apart from every stupidity, and the Malaysians who keeps insulting Indonesia with bad gestures, we still enjoy watching their absurd, non-stop, never-ending drama series.. see there's always a good side yeeeehaa

Adult Content

2011-01-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

I'm 20!... yeeeeehaaaa

Eksperimen 2: career were destined

2010-12-28T14:09:00.006+08:00

I'm learning from experience, that our career were destined by Allah ever since before we were born.
I've conducted an experiment on my own.
Here are specimen of homosapien that I have observed to make myself a hypothesis.

First Case: My Dad

His first ambition was to become a lawyer. I heard hundred times of his ~~booo-ring~~ childhood stories, I think it's getting so over rated, and he even agitated the stories. "Ayah jalan 20 km turun bukit naik bukit nk ke sekolah" (It was a lie). but when he furthered his education, he ended up taking town planning, and during his work period he became a reporter.

Second Case: Pakcik Awie Taukeh Ayam

yes. pakcik Awie sells chicken at Pasar Gombak. Recently, I've been appointed as a full-time bibik, cool en. so, i have to discharge my duties by going to the market daily and buy raw food to cook. Mr Awie doesn't like to smile. he always throw those dirty little looks everytime i come to buy myself a chicken, as if I was the criminal who murdered someone.. yikes. one day there was an auntie who were very friendly and told me about Mr Awie.(ceh dh terpengaruh dgn makcik2 gossip girl kat pasar tu) and so it seems, Mr Awie was once a franchise manager of KFC holdings before he was here.. the story is long so let's take a shortcut.. and now he ends up being a chicken vendor.

Third Case: The Interviewer

Yesterday was another interview for my application as a kindi's teacher. It was an Islamic school. it looks like a simple interview. sapa2 pn blh jadi cikgu tadika en en. but obviously I was wrong. The question were beyond expectation, and the situation given for me to give solution was the biggest trap. provided that the school uses English as its medium. Back to our subject, the interviewer, Pn NoorHafizah. just a brief of her background, her previous school was SM Sains bla bla blu, kangar. (sorry can't remember the name). most importantly its a science school, she achieved 9A's in her SPM and furthered her studies in Australia taking up accounting as a major. do you know how cool is that. but after she grad, she decided that she couldn't do accounting and shifted to start a business and opened a kindergarten.

see no matter how rationally you make decisions, no matter how perfect you're planning to success, things will occasionally fall into places. Allah has determined our life. Nevertheless we can still change our fate, if we change ourselves first.
All of the above example have made decisions of life from the beginning but Allah has its own agenda, and they ended doing things that were not related to what they have planned.

Pakcik Karim work so hard in his degree in town planning and ended up hired as a reporter, which has nothing to do with planning, its all about writing and creativity.

Pakcik Awie, Allah has destined him a job associate with chicken. he works in KFC, which is a company full of chicken. at the end even after giving up his job, he still has to serve chicken.

Pn Hafizah was a bright student, she was even a graduate from an international university, for sure if she applied for accounting-based job, she can earn a lot. instead she gave it all up, and started a business not knowing the consequences. she were destined to be a kindi's teacher.

for that reason, no matter what your dream is or if even if you don't have any goal in life, keep on living and do the best in whatever you're doing.
if you cannot run, then walk. if a walk is hard for you, keep on moving even if it means crawling.
if crawling is still difficult, ~~burn those flabby fat ass, because you're fat and pathetic. or just go with the coffin and off with you.~~ huh. enough bullshitting, I was just bluffing and 'emo'ing.

STPM books for sale.

2010-12-22T20:38:00.013+08:00

Physics

1. STPM PHYSICS VOLUME 1, PELANGI SDN BHD, POH LIONG YONG [RM 20.00]

2. STPM PHYSICS VOLUME 2, PELANGI SDN BHD, POH LIONG YONG [RM20.00]

3. PRE-U TEXT/STPM PHYSICS VOLUME 1, LONGMAN CHEONG FOON CHOONG [RM22.00]

4. PRE-U TEXT/STPM PHYSICS VOLUME 2, LONGMAN, CHEOMG FOON CHOONG [RM22.00]

5. LONGMAN A LEVEL COURSE IN PHYSICS VOLUME 1, LOO KWOK WAI, ONG BEE HOO [RM22.00]

6. A LEVEL CRICTICAL GUIDE FOR H1 . H2, A COSMIC PRODUCTION, THOMAS BOND, CHRIS HUGHES [RM30.00]

7. HOMEWORK HELPERS, PHYSICS, THE CAREER PRESS, GREG CURRAN [RM30.00]

8. STPM PHYSICS VOLUME 1, SARJANA DIAGRAMMATIC SERIES, DR LEOW CHEE SENG, LOO WAN YONG [RM10.00]

9. CPMPREHENSIVE PHYSICS FOR A LEVEL VOL 1. 3RD EDITION, FEDERAL PUBLICATION, KF CHAN, CHARLES CHEW, SH CHAN. [RM15.00]

10. TOPICAL PRACTICE EXERCISES STPM, PHYSICS VOLUME 1, FEDERAL PUBLICATION, LAM CHOK SANG, LIM SEANG KANG [RM8.00]

11. ACE AHEAD STPM TEXT VOLUME 2, OXFORD FAJAR, POH LIONG YONG, LEE BENG HIN [RM20.00]

12. ACE AHEAD STPM TEXT VOLUME 1, OXFORD FAJAR, POH LIONG YONG, JONATHAN WONG[RM20.00]

13. STPM MODEL PAPER PHYSICS PAPER 1 & PAPER 2, FEDERAL PUBLICATION, LAM CHOK SANG, LIM SEANG KEE [RM5.00]

14. TOPICAL 1000 PHYSICS MCQ WITH HELPS, GCE A LEVEL, REDSPOT PUBLISHING [RM25.00]

15. SPECIMEN STPM PAPERS: PHYSICS, FEDERAL PUBLICATION, LAM CHOK SEANG, LIM SEANG KEE [RM5.00]

16. TOPICAL TUTORIAL STPM PHYSICS, FEDERAL PUBLICATION, LAM CHOK SEANG, LIM SEANG KEE [SOLD]

17. SCORE A IN STPM PHYSICS, PELANGI SDN BHD, NAGAPPAN A/L SITHAMBRAN [RM4.00]

18. TOPICAL TUTORIAL STPM PHYSICS, FEDERAL PUBLICATION, LAM CHOK SEANG, LIM SEANG KEE [RM5.00]

19. LONGMAN MCQ, STPM PHYSICS PAPER 1, LEONARD TAN OON SOO [RM15.00]

20. UNIVERSITY PHYSICS NINTH EDITION, ADDISON-WESLEY PUBLISHING, YOUNG AND FREEDMAN [RM20.00]

CHEMITSRY

6. ACE AHEAD CHEMISTRY VOLUME 2, OXFORD FAJAR, TAN YIN TOON, KATHIRASAN MUNIANDY, LIM MING HUI [RM20.00]

7. STPM PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY VOLUME 1, PELANGI SDN BHD, LOH YEW LEE, N SIVANESON [RM15.00]

11. RAYMOND CHANG CHEMISTRY, 7TH EDITION, MCGRAW HILL [RM20.00]

12. STPM & PRE-U PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY, THE COMPLETE TEXT GUIDE, ARAH PENDIDIKAN, PETER YIP [RM20.00]

MATHEMATICS

2. PRE-U STPM & MATRICULATION MATHEMATICS T&S, PELANGI SDN BHD, TEY KIM SOON, TAN AH GEOK [RM20.00]

5. ACTUAL EXAM PAPERS STPM 2005-2009, MATHEMATICS T PAPER 1&2, OXFORD FAJAR, WANG WEI [RM8.00]

7. PRE U TEXT STPM MATHEMATICS T PAPER 1, PEARSON LONGMAN, TAI PON HOY [RM22.00]

8. PRE U TEXT STPM MATHEMATICS T PAPER 2, PEARSON LONGMAN, HOW GUIAN AUN, SOON CHIN LOONG, TOON SWEE FOONG, LAU TOO KYA [RM22.00]

PENGAJIAN AM

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EKONOMI

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2. MAKRO EKONOMI STPM KERTAS 2, ANEKA PUBLISHING, SABARIAH ALI [RM10.00]

3. PRE U TEXT STPM MATRIKULASI MIKROEKONOMI, PERSON LONGMAN, HENG SIEW NGU, MD ZYADI MD TAHIR [RM22.00]

4. PRE U TEXT STPM MATRIKULASI MAKROEKONOMI, PEARSON LONGMAN, LAI MOOI CHANG, HEW YOKE FOONG [RM22.00]

5. MIKOROEKONOMI UNTUK MATRIKULASI, STPM DAN UNIVERSITI, THOMSON, ABDUL KADIR MAT YAZIF, AZHAR HARUN [RM20.00]

6. STRATEGI MENJAWAB STPM MAKROEKONOMI, PENERBIT FAJAR BAKTI SDN BHD, T SHANMUGAM, A THURAISINGAM, A KOHILLAN PILLAY [RM18.00]

7. MCQ STPM EKONOMI KERTAS 1&2, PERSON LONGMAN, LAI MOO CHANG, HEW YOKE FOONG [RM15.00]

MUET

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downturn

2010-12-16T11:50:00.008+08:00

*ym archive 15.12.2010*

Cikgu kereta cantik : dah habis exam ke

khairah akarim : belum, tp sy buat2 dh habis, esk kimia

khairah akarim : tp dh baca

Cikgu kereta cantik : jgn la tipu

khairah akarim : ishh

Cikgu kereta cantik) : betul ke habis baca

khairah akarim : tak tipu punye

Cikgu kereta cantik : baik awak g study

Cikgu kereta cantik : kang menyesal

Every time i attempt white lies, i fumble in speech. okay i admit. i lied. i did not study chemistry the whole day. i was busy with my zombie attack. I am sorry teacher.

it wasn't because I was lazy enough to read chemistry, but i planned to fail chemistry right from the beginning. and yes I am a failure, say whatever, what is done has been done. there's no turning back.

I didn't plan to fail because i hate chemistry or anything, but because i know I'm losing a war with myself.

People outside don't really understand the real situation going on in form 6. there's a lot of crisis, political agenda, conspiracy and drama. only the 11 of us including the teacher knows what is happening. even the school administrator wont understand. is not as easy as it looks.

friends and family often acclaim 'kayra takpe ko pandai'. it is with shame I announced that , you are absolutely wrong. I'm not that bright. and I am no more that khairah that sit and study. and my brain capacity has exponentially degraded.

STPM is not a turning point for me, but rather a downturn for me to start. but this time is not from zero but from -8(negative eight). It means I have to work a hundred times harder at the next level of life.

For future SPM leaver, my advice is if you are thinking of taking form 6, think 183 times. i really mean 183. so count it right. and whatever you pursue do it with an open heart right from the beginning.

STPM sudah pergi

2010-12-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

New Years resolution.

well, i never liked the idea of new year resolution. to tell the truth I hate new year's resolutions. I really do. It's just another thing that you have to feel guilty for when it doesn't turn out the way you hoped. following a regime that you know you wont be able to fulfill. obliged to rule that contradict your stance.

Instead I made myself a checklist of things to do.

[x] improve my communication skill and public relations

[x] Ambil lesen kereta + ~~motor.~~(ayah tak bagi naik motor, katanya motor tu bukan kenderaan sebab tak ada ciri-ciri keselamatan, errrrrrr..?? dia tak tau anak dia ni dh pernah merempit

[x] Cari kerja
*guru tadika (yes, i would amour those inoccent little kids calling me cikgu khairah)
*penjaga zoo. ak teringin nk gosok gigi monyet dan harimau...wee...

[x] beli handbag... auww (terpaksa, sbb kakak kata kt dh dewasa). +kasut snickers + kasut sukan

[x] kuruskan badan, kecikkan ~~buntut~~, punggung. adik lelaki ak marah pakai seluar jeans ketat, dia kata dia kena tanggung dosa ak. ak kata, apa2 la pak aji.tak2 sumpah seluar tu yang dh mengecil. ok ak tipu disitu,
~~sbnrnya ak yg dh membesar~~.

[x] hafal surah yaasin/ Al Baqarah/ Al mulk( sila baca dengan membayangkn muka suci ak)
      *bln 3 hadiri kelas mengaji

[x] Ak mengidam nk beli motor mcm org lain tp ayah tak bagi. takpe2 .. mountain bike pn jadi lerr..

[x] belajar memasak
   *ayam masak tomato
   * ayam masak kicap
   * ayam masak merah
   * ayam masak kuning

[x] hapuskan nota dan buku2 stpm
     * recycle buku nota dan buku teks stpm.

[x] beli kamera / handpone ~~blackberry storm~~ .. tipu je, ak tak suka blackberry dah la gemuk bulat, debab, takde keypad, lopek, gelap, hitam...(maaf, ter emo pula disitu)

Be YOurself, unless YOU Suck. Part1

2010-12-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

people around me keep saying " be yourself". I've heard it million times until I think this phrase has been getting so over rated. But, have they ever thought, about people who has naturally negative personality, individual that worries a lot(paranoid) or constantly complaining about everything or people like me. take a moment and observe me, I'm not a social person(my childhood infliction can tell). i hardly speak to strangers or people I just met. its hard to even hear a simple 'hi' from me. people who have known me long would understand me, but those who have just met me, will name me snobby. I'm used to it, no hard feeling.
and whenever there'e an event or gathering, I would give 1001 reason to avoid myself from participating. its just me(sorry mates). i'm being myself. if i were to choose to be myself, i would not even bother talking to people, I would rather be quiet and sit by my own. you can ask my parents for proof, I'm not a talkative person at home. people won't be able to see me grin estatically at home as I do with my friends. I'm completely a different person. and is not just me, most people are like that.

its easy for someone to tell you, to be yourself. but they never really taught you HOW to be yourself. the same manner, when teachers and parents constantly constraint us to work hard and study well. but they never really coached you how.

Now I'm baffled..where should I stand... being myself or..?? (to tell the truth, i hate being myself)
to be continue..

**I have 4 more papers to go.. MATHT1PHYSICSMATHT2CHEMISTRY1

Gangguan Makhluk bermata merah

2010-12-05T18:18:00.000+08:00

tgk tajuk di atas, ada gaya tajuk penulis harian metro tak.
Biasalah di mn2 pn ada makhluk halus. Kelmarin terbaca di blog Anis Zahrah ttg 4 perkara yg tak dpt dilupakan, antaranya termasukla histeria. sekolah lama ak pnh diserang makhluk halus. kisah ni masuk paper. mmg cool la skola ak.

Ak antara mereka yg menyaksikan dan terlibat dalam peristiwa tersebut. semuanya bermula mlm 12 Jun 2008. ada antara rakan batch terkena gangguan makluk halus. ketua kerohanian batch kami meminta bantuan ustaz. malangnya ustaz tak dpt nk membantu sbb dia pn ada anak kecil. jadi batch kami berpakat membaca yaasin dan seterusnya budak lelaki azan beramai2 di setiap penjuru blok kelas tingkatan 5. detik ini bermula penyerangan gangguan makhluk halus berleluasa. hampir setiap kelas ada jeritan. ada yang terkena terus nak balik dorm, and ak antara yg cuba nk menahan budak tu, tp akhirnya ak dilempang free2 je. nasib baik la kwn tu mmg btl2 kena histeria, klu tak mmg kena pukimak hanjeng blk ngn ak.

Bila keadaan semakin parah dan tidak terkawal, warden mengarahkan semua pelajar puteri berkumpul di gelanggang asrama. ak pn berada di sini, sbb keadaan di blok akademik tidak begitu memerlukan sbb dia attack kat asrama puteri pula. semua pelajar puteri berkumpul kebingungan, semua diarahkan mengambil air sembahyang siap2 untuk membaca yaasin beramai2 di court. mmg menakutkan keadaan waktu tu, sbb kedengaran jeritan yang membingitkan. ak dan beberapa pelajar ting 5 diarahkn rounding utk perhatikan pelajar yg agak2 nampak takut. sbb mereka la yg berpotensi utk dirasuk. ble tiba kat sorang junior ni, mmg menakutkan dia nampak ketakutan yg amat dan dia tak baca yaasin pn. ak pn tny la dia bbrp soalan.

Aku: sara(bkn nama sebenar), eh awk ok tak ni. jgn la takut, kena kuat.
Sara: .......
Aku: eh knp ni, jgn la mcmni.
Sara: .....(sambil menangis)
Aku: Nama awak sapa? (nk meyakinkn itu diri dia)
Sara:..... (masih berdiam)

Aku pn kononnya seperti pengamal perubatan islam menampar dia bbrp kali.. sumpah ak tak sengaja, sbb ak mmg ketakutan, dan ak pnh nampak kot dlm drama org buat mcmni pd org kena histeria.
Budak tu pn menangis dan kemudiaanya bernafas laju2... kemudian sara ni termuntah. ak pn apa lagi lg la takut..
ceh.. rupa-rupanya kwn sblh dia bgtau ak, "kak, sara semput dia bkn histeria", dan akibatnya sara ni dibawakn ke hospital secepat mungkin. ak pn dh termalu sorang2. sbb byk kali kot ak tampar dia.. isshhh teruk betul.

pengajarannya, klu kt taktau tentang sesuatu benda, jgn la kt buat2 tau.

ni antara rentetan peristiwa yg berlaku, klu sesiapa pljr smss nk baca blh la dijdkn pengajaran.
1. pengalaman smss diganggu
2. makhluk halus serang smss
2.

Aku Jatuh Cinta

2010-12-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

kenapa dgn tajuk di atas.? adakah cik khairah nazurah sudah jatuh cinta?, Jika jawapan anda ya, tepat sekali anda salah. smlm time mendelete sampah sarap dlm inbox, terbaca satu emel dari rakan lama yang dh lama tak jumpa,

baik skrg, sila amalkan, ingat ya, sila masukkan nama KHAIRAH NAZURAH BT KARIM. takde ak tipu je, jangan baca utk ak.
ceh, ak pn tak pasti apa motif bagi baca doa ni, nampak mcm desperate pula.
ok takde apa2 yg serius, ni sbnrnya utk mendoakan rakan kt yang belum bertemu jodoh. mudah2an dgn doa kt, Allah makbulkn. InsyaAllah.

ni pn blh la diamalkan. selamat beramal.

ZOmbie vs STPM

2010-12-02T20:24:00.000+08:00

The reason why I started blogging is to prevent myself from frowning into the zombie. i can't focus on my exam because of this %$^%&*!!#$ zombie game.

Proof: I won all 10 cup.! VICTORY IS MINE....! and played endless until 38 flag. cool eh.

*off to study*

Uji Kaji 1: Saya Tinggi.

2010-12-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

MENGAPA ORANG EROPAH LEBIH TINGGI BERBANDING ORANG ASIA??

Menurut Tokmah( ibu kpd ayah ak), semasa Jepun menyerang Tanah Melayu, Jepun ini macam ayam katik atau macam ayam serama kerana mereka adalah orang yang ~~pendek~~(sensitif) rendah. Bila kita berkunjung ke mana-mana pusat peranginan seperti Genting Highland tentunya kagum melihat orang Amerika dan Eropah besar dan tinggi badan dan kacak. Tak ak tipu, mereka tak kacak.

Kalau kt tny cikgu sains di sekolah tentang fenomena ini pn, mereka pasti menjawab disebabkan faktor genetik yang khusus yang menjadikan badan mereka tinggi. Pandangan dari ilmu sains ini biasa diterima umum tanpa banyak soal disebabkan ada istilah "MENURUT SAINS”.

Selama sebulan ni ak dah buat pemerhatian ke atas beberapa spesimen manusia.

1. Hamba abdi yang diambil dari afrika dulu kebanyakannya pendek namun mengapakah kini bangsa ini di Amerika majoritinya adalah tinggi dan setanding dengan orang Amerika lainya??

2. Sesiapa yang pernah pergi mengerjakan haji atau umrah tentunya pernah melihat orang Arab Saudi sebahagiannya tinggi setanding orang Amerika tetapi sebahagian mereka juga pendek macam orang Malaysia. Begitu juga dengan orang Afrika yang sebahagiannya tinggi dan sebahagiannya pendek??

3. Sewaktu musim haji ini juga kita boleh melihat orang Afghanistan majoritinya tinggi macam orang Amerika sedangkan kita semua tahu bahawa orang Afghanistan ini makan makanan yang tidak mewah semewah majoriti orang Malaysia.

4. Ramai orang benggali di Malaysia jauh lebih tinggi dari kebanyakan orang melayu dan Cina.

Ramai orang Indonesia yang bekerja diMalaysia adalah pendek berbanding kebanyakan orang Malaysia.

5. Kebanyakan orang Cina di Tanah Besar Cina juga adalah pendek.

6. Kebanyakan orang Cina yang berhijrah ke Amerika akhirnya menghasilkan keturunan yang semakin tinggi seperti beberapa bintang filem Cina di Hollywood yang setanding dengan orang Amerika lainnya.

7. Kini ramai orang Jepun di Jepun dan orang Cina di Hongkong lebih tinggi saiz badannya berbanding kebanyakan orang Jepun dan Cina dahulu kala.

8. Terdapat banyak kes, datuk nenek dan ibu bapa bersaiz kecil namun menghasilkan anak yang tinggi hingga 5’ 11” atau lebih tinggi lagi(pandang meor)

Jadi, apakah hipotesis yang blh dibuat disini.?

Apakah kenyataan sains yang mengatakan orang Amerika dan Eropah ini mempunyai baka atau gen tinggi ini benar atau hanya tipu daya manusia dengan menggunakan sains sebagai alatnya? ”.
Atau adakah jikalau kita makan makanan yang berzat seperti susu, telur dan daging, kita boleh menjadi tinggi macam orang Amerika.?

Jawapannya, SESEORANG YANG BANYAK MENGAMBIL MAKANAN DARI PRODUK GANDUM AKAN MENJADIKANNYA TINGGI BERBANDING SESEORANG YANG BANYAK MENGAMBIL MAKANAN DARI PRODUK BERAS.

sebenarnya memang susah nk terima pendapat ni tanpa mana2 bukti. Oleh itu ak mengambil diri ak sebg contoh model pemakanan untuk dijadikan ujikaji. kenapa ak yg dipilih sbg ujikaji.? mungkinkah sebab ak tinggi.? jwpnnya YA MEMANG AK TINGGI. (ko...! jgn nk gelak). Sebelum tu ak juga dh bertanyakan ilmu ini drpd pakar dan beberapa guru
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Aku dilahirkan oleh ibu bapa dari keturunan melayu tulen. 5 orang adik beradik dan kesemuanya berbadan sedang, paling tinggi pun 6’ 1”. Namun aku ditakdirkan tinggi hanya 4' 9''. Setelah mengakaji sejarah hidup ak sewaktu kecil hingga remaja dan bandingkan dengan adik beradik lain, maka ak akur dengan hipotesis tentang pemakanan.

Menurut sumber yang sahih, sewaktu kecil ak tak berapa suka makan. makanan ak paling mewah pun nasi tanpa lauk. makanan lain ak pandang sebelah mata je. Ini adalah perbezaan yang nyata berbanding adik beradik lain yang gemar kuih yang diperbuat dari tepung gandum seperti kuih ketayap, kaswi, lapis, pau, roti canai dan cekodok. Sebab mak ak memang sangat rajin memasak. Setelah memasuki sekolah menengah kami adik beradik berpisah, sbb masing2 masuk asrama penuh. Pada peringkat inilah ak perhatikan ke'abnormal' adik beradik lain yang menjadi tinggi secara tiba2. sebabnya setiap minggu, tak sah diorang ni klu tak order roti berbuku2. Sebenarnya ak mmg jarang nk makan roti kalau kat rumah. sbb allergic ngn roti. ak boleh makan ayam je.

Berbalik kpd cite benggali.. knp tinggi.? Rupanya bangsa ini memang menjadikan capati sebagai makanan ruji mereka. Padanlah orang Benggali ini majoritinya tinggi kerana mereka banyak makan capati. Capati dibuat dari tepung ata dan sebenarnya tepung ata adalah tepung gandum tulen dan itulah sebabnya tepung ini berwarna keperangan iaitu warna sebenar gandum sebagaimana warna spageti dan makaroni. Tepung gandum yang biasa kita beli memang mengandungi gandum namun ia tidak tulen dan itulah sebab harganya murah dibandingkan dengan tepung ata.

Bila kita kaji orang Afghanistan pula, mereka makan makanan yang sangat asas tanpa makanan mewah seperti kebanyakan orang di Malaysia namun satu fakta pentinya ialah ia makan roti gandum tulen yang menjadi makanan rujinya.

Bila kita lihat pelakon Cina di Hollywood kini ramai yang segak tinggi macam orang Amerika, barulah kita faham bahawa setelah mereka berhijrah, mereka melahirkan generasi muda yang makan makanan yang sama atau mirip makanan orang asli Amerika yang banyak makan produk gandum. Itulah lumrahnya yang menjadikan mereka tinggi macam orang Amerika.

Orang Jepun moden dan Cina moden yang tinggal di Hong Kong juga sudah berubah selera mereka dan gemarkan piza dan pelbagai roti. Apabila ia di makan dengan kerap, jadilah mereka generasi baru Jepun dan Cina yang tinggi.

Orang Cina di Tanah besar Cina serta orang Jepun secara tradisinya memang menjadikan beras dan produk beras seperti beehoon, kueutiaw dan sebagainya sebagai makanan utama mereka. Inilah faktor utama yang menjadikan mereka pendek sebagaimana juga orang jawa di Indonesia dan juga yang merantau ke Malaysia. Sekiranya kebiasaan ini dikekalkan, insya-Allah generasi mereka akan kekal pendek tetapi jikalau mereka mula menukar selera dengan makanan produk gandum, insya-Allah generasi muda mereka akan menyaingi ketinggian orang Amerika.

Itulah juga penjelasan mengapa sebahagian orang Arab di Arab Saudi ada yang tinggi dan pendek. Mereka yang banyak makan produk beras akan pendek dan mereka yang banyak makan produk gandum akan insya-Allah tinggi.

Namun satu perkara penting perlu diingat ialah kadar pertambahan tinggi perempuan adalah terhenti pada usia 15 – 17 tahun manakala bagi lelaki adalah pada usia 17 – 20 tahun. Sebaik-baik usaha yang baik untuk melahirkan anak yang tinggi ialah dengan memberikan makanan produk gandum pada usia awal sehingga usia sebelum 15 – 17 bagi perempuan dan 17 – 20 bagi lelaki. Makan produk gandum pada usia melewati usia-usia ini tidak mendatangkan tambahan ketinggian malah akan menambahkan kelebaran saiz badan.
takpe2, ak akan pastikan ak kahwin ngn org tinggi supaya generasi ak tak pendek. ngahahhahhahahaa

Ak rase ak dh terpengaruh dgn siri "CLEVER" kat TVIQ, sehingga beria2 nk buat uji kaji, padahal minggu dpn ak ade paper MATH T STPM. kui3.

L.O.S.T

2010-12-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

at this point of life, i'm in a state of nowhere. i don't feel belonging.
But I think I'm having an identity crisis.
I feel like I'm empty inside, like at any given moment I'm going to crack and fall away into a thousand little broken pieces of mirror and vanished. My mood swings about every day, I don't know how to think or what to do with myself. I feel like I'm losing a war with myself and can't do anything about it. Because of this I just keep feeling more and more hopeless, and good happy things don't seem to be enough anymore to prop myself up again. I don't want to be all whiney and complaining about everything. i hate when people see me as a problematic.

i don't even know how to present myself to public without hypocrisy. I'm telling you people, I'm FAKE, F.A.K.E

or maybe it's merely the process of being an adult.?

or maybe because i know im failing in STPM and chosen the wrong road.?

or maybe it is identity crisis.?

I keep advising people to move on, but what have i done for myself.? I'm telling people to step forward, but me.? I'm always retreating, running away from reality as if running on a treadmill. when you are exercising on the treadmill, there's never a destiny, you're still on the same spot before and after, all you get is sweat, fatigue (~~and hot figure~~).

I just hope that by the end of the day, I'm ME again.
maybe i should stop ranting about life and start study for math, phy and p.am.

off to glory, pray for my success.

selamat tinggal

2010-11-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

Aku kagum melihat kejadian Allah mengatur hidup ini.. dia datangkan kita sebuah pertemuan yang tak terjangka akan menjadi sebuah kemesraan. dan kemudiannya dia pasangkan pula pertemuan itu dengan perpisahan. tanpa perpisahan kt tak mungkin mengerti makna rindu. perpisahan mengajar kt erti menghargai. kt hny akan mengenang selepas berpisah. bile ade di dpn mata kt sering terlupa.

hari ini hari terakhir persekolahan di smk batu muda. akhirnya perjuangan ak kat sini tamat jua. ak tak pasti apa perasaan ak pada saat ini, mungkin gembira atau mungkin sebaliknya. perjalanan yang pada mulanya selalu ak menyumpah berakhir dengan suatu yang baik dan sayang utk berpisah. seringkali ak tersungkur. namun aku syukur, masih ade tangan yang sudi menghulur. macam-macam ragam manusia ak jumpa kat sini, manusia yang ak fikir ada dalam cerekarama shj, rupa-rupaya betul2 wujud.

Ali: hari pertama ak jumpa ali, ak jatuh cinta ngn dia,bkn sbb suka kat dia tp sebab cita2 dia nk jadi doktor, muka dia pn nampak innocent je.. tp lama2. haihh..sakit jiwa dibuatnya.
ali, kematian ibunya sewaktu form 1, sejak tu menurut sumber sahih perangai dia jadi pelik.. selama dua tahun kelas ngn ali, ktorang jarang berkomunikasi. tp hanya menggunakan bahasa isyarat sahaja.. dia berada di dunia maya yang tiada siapa pernah terokai. pnh sekali, ali menunjukkan jari telunjuknya kat ak. haishh ak pn pelik la, apa benda bdk ni mencarut. rupanya dia nk pinjam seringgit sbb tak bawa duit belanja.

azri: pada mulanya dia memang seorang yang berkelakuan pelik, dia mempunyai minat yang tak konsisten, tapi bila lama2 kenal dia, dia tetap seorang yang pelik. dia ada krisis identiti yang kronik. mungkin sbb dia kurang kasih sayang. dgn masalah keluarga. tp dia seorang yang baik hati klu dpt kenal hati dia, dia juga paling kacak (bukan ak kata, org lain)

cikgu kereta cantik: ini cikgu fizik saya. 1st time jumpe di lab fizik, cikgu ni sangat selamba.. pertama kali masuk klas fizik, ak dpt baca cikgu ni ada misi utk mengeluarkan ak dr sek ni. ak faham knp, sbb dia tak nk persiakan masa depan pelajar dia. tp lama2 ak dh dpt rase cg tu syg kat ak, sbb dia sokong ak tak pindah, ceh perasaan ak je, taktau r betul ke tak. hari2 masa kelas fizik tche akan ckp. 'tche minta maaf sbb tak dpt berikan yg terbaik'(dh blh hafal dh phrase dia).. tp dia silap, tche dh byk mengajar sy ttg kehidupan, menjadi seorang dewasa. byk dgr cita2 ak yang merepek dan dunia fantasi ak.. sehinggakan ak rase tche dh terpengaruh utk menjadi seorang penjual bunga.

tiera n yana: hmm.kembar siam tak siap ni. tp perangai dua2 adalh kontra. yana seorang yg suka memndam, dia tak suka ble org luar dh dpt fhm dia. seorang yang ceria n ade je benda yg dia nk ckp klu time mood ok.. tp klu mood dia tak ok, nk pandang dia pn gerun. seorang yg kadang2 misterius.. tiera, seorang yang baik hati dan mudah terpengaruh.. haha. ak pn taktau knp ak ckp mcmtu.

rini n fara: fara ni seorang yang bagus cuma kekadang dia ni ekstrem sangat sampai org pn kadang2 ternyampah ngn dia.. seorang yang banyak kekasih gelap, dan suke menceritakan hal kwn2 pada teman2nya. rini.. haihh. ni lg sorang, susa nk describe. enigma sangat.. rini seorang yang mengikut peraturan. ak slalu gelak diam2 ble rini ckp kat ktorang, sbb slalu org tak layan.. rini tak suka nk citer psl prob dia, dia mengamalkan dasar tutup pintu. klu ko dh dpt kepercayaan dia, brlah dia blh citer.. hmm.mcmn ni nk cr pakwe utk rini.

meor harith alwy: seorang yang paling normal setakat ni, seorang ketua yang bertanggungjawab, dan sayang anak buah. masa lower 6 jumpa meor, sopan orangnya. tergoda auww.s eorang kwn yg setia. byk masalah yg ak alami ak cite kat dia. slalu ym bersama dan bergosip. tp bile dh masing2 sibuk ngn stpm, ktorang jd renggang. tp start tu dgr lak cite gosip ak ngn meor. taktau la mn diorang dpt idea ni, sampai ade cikgu2 pn ade bertanya.
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cikgu ekonomi sedunia: cikgu yang sgt penyayang dan baik hati. nampak ak mesti tny dh makan ke. merupakan inspirasi knp ak berminat dlm ekonomi. cg ni sbnrnnya sgt baik, cuma klu korang tak kenal dia, mmg korang tak blh nak suka kat dia..tp mmg tak blh nafikn cg ni jujur, kdg2 kata2 dia makan dalam. pnh skali ak dilabel berpolitik dua alam, sbb tak bawa cikgu ni sebagai guru pengiring ke parlimen. haihh.. politik2.

leman n tiger n nabil: dua2 ni dh meninggalkn ktorang awal2 lg. leman seorang pecinta wanita. dia suka berkata2 manis kpd perempuan, sampaikan ada org masuk meminang. tiger seorang yang berfikiran bisnes. nabil si pengacau bersiri, tak sempurna hidup dia kalau tak kacau org satu hari. nasib baik la ade tiera, kurang sikit dia buli org lain.

hari2 terakhir sbg pelajar smkbm

siapa ak hr ni, adlh hasil dari perkongsian pengalaman bersama mereka. dan tak semestinya klu tak dpt STPM 4A, kt tak berjaya. mungkin bukan dalam akademik. tp tak bermakna perjuangan kite berhenti, malah kegagalan itu suatu permulaan yang baru utk mencipta suatu kejayaan. klu colonel harland sanders berhenti drpd kegagalan dia mencipta ayam yg sedap. pasti hari ni korang tak dpt menikmati ayam KFC.

2010-11-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

Minggu ni merupakan hari-hari yang teruk bagiku, banyak sangat duri-duri tajam yang ak lalui sepanjang masa, spt duri2 yg ak terpijak di padang hijau td yg rumputnya panjang sewaktu bermain rounders di rumah tiera.
setiap hari ak bangkit dengan semangat yang semakin pudar untuk ke sekolah... tiada lagi perasaan cinta kepada sekolah, cita-cita untuk mendapatkan full attendance terpadam dari kotak fikiran, tanpa meninggalkn sedikit cahaya menembusi. tiada lagi sinar.spt bilik kebal gelap.

semakin hari ak bersekolah semakin membuak-buak perasaan menyesal seperti air yang mendidih di dapur menunggu orang memadam api dapur. ak sedar kesilapan besar yang ak lakukan.
betul ckp mak ayah ak, ak ni sgt rigid. ak menolak segala tawaran dengan sekeras-kerasnya seolah-olah ak ni bagus sangat tanpa memikirkan kesan.

sepanjang minggu lepas juga aku melalui hari-hari dengan ketumbuhan kronik di muka. jerawat ku tumbuh seperti cendawan tumbuh selepas hujan.. sama seperti gunung berapi yang ingin meletus yang pernah ak lihat dalam national geographic. huh.. sakit...
bkn shj itu, ak ditimpa lagi dgn sakit gigi yang menjadi-jadi. andai ak jumpa playar di rumah. pasti sudah ku tarik gigi itu.. ak menggunakan psikologi spt dikatakan rakan2 utk meyakinkan diri ku bahawa ak tak sakit gigi... berjaya je hilang sakit kat gigi berjangkit pula kesakitan di kepala yang berdenyut-denyut seperti degupan jantung orang yang selepas aktif bersukan.. haihhhh... dengan keadaan exam esk... formula2 belum lg dihafal.. nk hentak kepala takut hilang pula ingatan..

ak tabahkan diri... esknya ak ttp ke sekolah dengan muka yang sama, muka yang busan dan tak nk senyum...muka ku tegang seolah-olah baru membuat pembedahan plastik menegangkn kulit.
ak masuk kelas dan masih ramai lg rakan2 ku yg tak hadir ke sekolah. betapa kecewanya perasaan..
melihat keliling ak tak bermaya namun ak masih gelak2.. padahal ak gelak kepada lawak ku sendiri.. hambar betul.. seolah2 melihat cerita seram.

ak sedar ak tak layak menasihati org lain sbb ak sendiri pn bermasalah. ak tak berdaya mengimbangi masa lagi...
mungkin ak perlu mengaku ak seorang yg gagal dan ak memilih utk gagal...

TITIPAN BUAT MAJALAH SEKOLAH

2010-11-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

Are You Failing.? Or is it stress.?

Khairah, a class XII student, is under pressure. Her neighbour, Ankit scored straight A’s in the Class XII exams a year ago and Khairah's parents expect her to perform a lot better.

She isn't the only one in such a situation. With only weeks left for the examinations, many students find themselves weighed down by expectation, leading to examination stress. The ‘term exam’ stress can be broadly defined as a feeling of anxiety over one's performance in the exams, the results and reaction of parents and friends; all weigh upon students to create exam stress. At the end many of them failed in their exam due to excessive stress.

Analytically, stress can divided into good stress and bad stress. Good stress is a form of stress that stimulates motivation. Good stress acts as a driving force for a person to move forward in achieving what they are aiming. It is the salt and spice of life, and without it one could be dead. Nevertheless, failing in exam can be the result of bad stress. Students are found lacking in overcoming anxiety. Many deny the existence of exam phobia, but science has proven it. Let me just clear you with this statement. Are you experiencing disturbed sleep?, or difficulty in concentrating? And when in the examination hall, do you feel that everything has drained out of your brain. And the sky is falling? If you answer yes to these question. Congratulations because you are acceptable to fail in exam. Exam stress can be a big problem for some students, often resulting in a fear of failure that defeats them even before they put pen to paper. Worst come to worst, when often parents and teachers keep blaming the student for not preparing for the exam without knowing the real situation.

Stress is a major disaster and root problem for student failing in examinations. But for every disorder there is always a medicine to treat. So don’t take for granted for the exam disease you are experiencing. Just like other ordinary patient, get medication and seek help for your own sake.

Tip #1: Ask for + accept support

If you're feeling overwhelmed, you might find it helpful to talk to a teachers, counselor parents, siblings, friends (please note that I excluded the boyfriend from the list). It's also important to ask for, and accept, support from your family if you can. This support might be practical, like picking you up from the library, or emotional, including advice or help.

Tip #2:Turn your cell phone/iPod/TV/computer off

Statistic shows that Malaysian adults spend an average of 8 hours on facebook. Comparing with developed country such as Japan, they only spend an average of 3 hours on facebook. Believe it or not, Facebook is NOT a study tool. Tweeting to your friends about review problems and answers isn’t quite effective either. TURN IT OFF. Turning off your cell phone/ipod/TV/computer allows for less distraction. Most of the time, all you need is your book, a highlighter, notebook, and a good cup of coffee. If you worry that people will be trying to get a hold of you, update your Facebook status telling your friends you are studying and you will be unavailable for a trip to the cafe, but maybe after the exam is over. In this way not only you are able to study more diligently but you also help to reduce the number of hours Malaysian spend on facebook. Finding a quiet, secluded, space to study will allow one to focus more.

Tip #3:Study more than 1 day in advance
Some people learn better when they “cram” for exams. Rarely does a student benefit from studying a couple of days in advance. Allow yourself some time in your schedule to study and review your notes for the exam. Revising assigned assignments might be boring, but beneficial. The teachers assign the homework for a reason. Organize your notes, rewrite and review them. By giving you a few days to soak the information in, the day before the exam might not be so hectic.

Tip #4:Take study breaks
We are not robots, so sitting for hours looking at pages and pages of readings and notes is not exciting. By allowing yourself to take short and frequent study breaks, information will be retained more than if a student were to study for hours straight through the night. Eat some snack, or poke your friend or brother (which I highly NOT recommending). Study for an hour, take a short 10 minute break (check your Facebook if you must, send a tweet, update your location on foursquare), but get right back to serious study mode. By giving your brain a break, you can remember more of what you have learned.

nukilan utk majalah permata

am sorry teacher

2010-08-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

25th August 2010

A step closer to STPM. my heart is pounding thinking of the days left, unfortunately i never constraint myself to change. today i've attended a seminar on physics STPM. Just as I expected, i'm the only Malay of all the participants of the seminar. its obvious that how our education system has created gap between the bumiputeras and other races. the typical chinese thoughts, the malay are not good enough to pursue for STPM. even if the malay did chose STPM, they can never succeed. well, i can never agree more. STPM ridiculously cover a wide scope of syllabus. and the top scorers are usually the Chinese.

though i had a great time, learning.. definitions, formula, technique of answering.
the seminar were held at V.I. my teacher's husband drove us all along from school to V.I.. it was a long silent throughout journey. it felt awkward for me. the seminar ended before the time set. and I decided that we go home by LRT. so we did... my teacher insisted to ascot me. for me, i'm fine traveling alone, no worries. everytime i walked a long distance, I eventually managed to disregard my problems and what life's worth. i never felt petrified to strangers or bandit or some maniac rapist. btw, its not cool taking train with your teacher.
i felt sorry for my teacher for urging her to travel a 'long' journey. can't blame her for her laggard steps, she wore high heels plus she wore baju kurung that restricted her movement. hehe. i laughed amid our journey.. kesian2.. teacher.am really sorry.. and worst several times we ended up with the wrong train and direction and she had to sponsored the whole journey.

Calculations( considerations taken for all economist wannabe)
1. from hang tuah to KLSENTRAL---> RM1.60x2= RM3.20
2. KL SENTRAL to Masjid Jamek----> RM1.20x2= RM 2.40
3. Masjid Jamek to Sentul------> RM 1.20x2 =RM 2.40
TOTAL= RM8.00

in the first place she wanted to get a cab. but I insisted to take the train. the journey was like a 10km marathon of non-stop..constant walking without resting.. we were dying and craving for cold drinks.. teh aiss..ahhh..unfortunately we were fasting.. (nasib baik la kami ni org2 beriman.. kui3..)
takpe cg maslina ni dh lama tak jogging. burning those flabby fat worth the journey. kan2 teacher.?
i slept the whole daylong and missed sahur n buka puasa.

I LOVE YOU THEE.

2010-08-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

lately, i have this odd addiction of watching 'vintage' movie. every time i open a book to study, I ended up watching movies A LOT to ease my tense.. and now i am more than aware that i have a crush on someone..

River Phoenix is currently my celebrity crush. It's depressing that he died 17 years ago. he succumbed to a drug abuse. why must the hunk died in contempt.don't they know they're public figures and idol of people. what a shame. But at least I can still watch his movies over and over again and dream of what he was like in real life. I love his grungy 80s style.

ooohh.. my heart pounded when he sings.. until now.

p/s. highly recommend to watch:-
Stand by Me (1986) & Dogfight (1991)

.....

enthusiasm of a child

2010-07-23T17:49:00.000+08:00

when I was a child, I always wanted to be an adult. eager to grow up an make my own decision in life and do as I desire. i always hated the times when parents lead to everything I do.
and not long before I realized that adults whom used to be my Idol are no longer what we think they are:

Adults do not know how to smile and laugh naturally. They often throw a fake or cynical smile

Adults are too messed up in the head when a simple answer of yes or no is enough.

Adults are not easy to understand because you can't really understand their expressions, their signs and actions, and respond to them appropriately.

Adults are too burdensome in the things they do. They work like robot that has no ability to think. they do as they are told, they often follow a regime invented by them. And they don't enjoy their works and they can't concentrate on the things they love just like children do.

Adults have different ways of expressing themselves in sorrow. they smoke, indulge in unhealthy activities, or hang around somewhere for a time to ease stress, when the simple solution is go to sleep and forget about the whole thing. live with what things offer.

Adults are so unreasonable that they let emotions overcome their common sense. They sometimes have no discretion in making decisions. They cannot stop eating once they get started. They cannot control the amount of food they eat, or how frequently they eat. And they just cannot stop drinking, smoking, talking, laughing, fooling around or harming themselves once they get started.

Adults aren't that brave after all. They are not that good protectors and role model. They stumble and fumble when they speak. They lack in confidence to stand up to what they believe in, and they are often pressured by their peers to do things which are not in line with their own value system.

Adults aren't that charming, caring, loving and homely once they are fully occupied with their works outside.

and worst some of the adults are lazy and slothful with their lives. They are not eager to work hard to provide for the family. They are seen wasting away their lives. They are always dependent on others. And they have no concern for the future. Adults are full of vulgar words and gestures in their daily life and seldom devote themselves to the worship of God.

This is what life is, we grow up and become adults, and start doing the same things over and over again.
yet as an adult we often failed to show the children ways to enjoy life and what we are worth. While our concerns are usually centered around things in life that are very important, we sometimes totally ignore the beauty to be enjoyed in this life.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2010-06-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

Ah , the smell of a rotten blog, yeah it’s DEAD. The reason I can’t update my blog is because of my tooth aching, and I don’t think it’s worth spending hours sitting in front of my desktop and trying to write something that nobody will read. If you find out that this blog is really boring, you're welcome to click on the [x] above.

I miss my friends. My friends are completely bonkers. They're just like my other half.

Last week I had the opportunity to have an outing with my dearest ex schoolmates that I haven’t seen in a long while. we met up at Wangsa Walk. It was a nice day of catching up. Funny how good friends never seem to have gaps of time, you slip easily and comfortably into a rhythm just like you haven’t skipped a beat, much yet, months or years.

All of them had taken different routes in life, pursuing in different fields e.g engineering, economy, medic, administration, housewives(yikes..) As we talked – I knew we all felt like this – it is with very few people who you can actually be real. Those who won’t ‘judge’ you. accept you the way you are..

backstreet mates, from left eja, zyra, kra, ufa n lila.

Yet, its sill despairing that i haven't actually had the time to meet all my mates.. I'm sorry for the inconvenience that I've made last minute.. Blame the %#$#@$@#$% braces.. Ika, sya, sara, anis. (whom I promised to meet at sm*s)

I bet, there's nothing could replace our good times, as it has already turn into memories. I promise I'll cherish them in mind. I'm not lying, I look like I don't care, but deep down inside I do.. I realise by the end of the day, friends will forget me, I'm not a social person, rarely attending gathering, exceptionally from joining the social network. I do accept it. don't miss me. Hahaha! :D

I love you, dear friends. I do miss all our sh*t days..

"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked." -- Bernard Meltzer.

I hope and I only hope..

2010-06-20T00:40:00.000+08:00

All your armies

All your fighters

All your tanks

And all your soldiers

Against a boy

Holding a stone

Standing there

All alone

In his eyes I see the sun

In his smile I see the moon

And I wonder, I only wonder

Who is weak and who is strong

Who is right and who is wrong

And I wish I only wish that the truth has a tongue

we all wish that the truth had a tongue to justifies itself. ... still a tongue can't save the souls and lives of our brothers and sisters who died in gruesome. Its either we take an action or to hell with us all. Sitting in front of the laptop watching this and crying a few tears won't do much.....
and then what's next? Go back and enjoy what life's offer..? and forget that there's people who dosen't have a place to sleep, food to eat, schools to study and clean water to drink, family to confide.. and worst the 'people' that seems to be our subject is our brother, our sister..We don't have feelings .. that's the truth. and yes the truth does hurt. having to say this.. i admit as an individual I'm insubstantial of doing anything. as a Muslim all I can do is pray to Allah.. *sob*

the precious 'M'

2010-06-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

it distracts me having to witness my brother buying all these branded clothes, gadgets, shoes..not just shoes.. shoes for class, shoes for night prep class, shoes for school events, shoes for outing, shoes for futsal, shoes for soccer, shoes for tennis, shoes for sports(eh..? aren't tennis, soccer n futsal are sports.?) and the list continues.. plus i have two brother, double the money..and you bet its not just any brand.. (addictive brand concious)..they never realised we're now categorised as poor and must spend more thrifty.
maybe i'm being too wary.. but no its not. i know its not jealousy its deeper than that. they never understand the value of money. they don't understand the difficulty of my parents earning money. its obvious that my parents are not discerning people. well, i wont be worrying if my dad is working and earning. Unfortunately now his not.
they've been wasting money the same way like i wasted my time (bad example).

if this was Ringgit Malaysia, I would probably cry by now..

I've been anticipating, where the hell the money came from..
the times when my dad was still working, my parents always ranted about money, and sometimes led to a quarrel and 'the kids' were the victims, don't misunderstood. not by means of abuse. just pep talks. adult talks. "you cannot buy this, not enough money...., don't waste money, bring your lunchpack, no need to buy from the canteen."... during those days, the paddle pop vendor would come around our street with its 'lovely' tune, paddle pop2x..la.la.la.., seducing people to buy ice cream, and you guess it right, ayah told us, cannot buy, save money.. huh.. i felt like screaming to the to ice cream vendor.. "f*ck u mister for rounding at my street, go elsewhere.."
In present, I can say that my younger siblings are enjoying things that me and my sister missed during our 'decades'.. in our school days, even our schoolbag were sponsored not bought..(jenama apa2 ntah).

btw, today I had my tution and my mum drove me to the lrt station..a weekly routine perhaps..on the way there we halt in front of a red traffic light. our eyes were captivated by an old makcik sweeping the pavement. and my mum started a conversation..

mum: tgk itula yg jd kat mi klu tua nnt, anak2 taknak bg duit...
me: hmmmm...*silent*
mum: dah tua nnt siapa yg nk bagi keje, tu je la org tua blh buat utk hidup..
me: *silent*
mum: esk klu korang senang igt la blk brape byk duit mi kluarkan utk korang, tak ternilai..
me: *a long silent*
mum: dgr tak mi ckp apa ni, blaja elok2.. jgn sia2 kan duit..
me: * a long long silent*

haha.. well.i'm cluelesss. i dnt know what to say. what if i did not become a 'somebody'..huh.. i didn't have the guts to spout.. i know it'll break one parents heart if they know that their child chose to fail..

back to our dilemma. money..
frankly speaking i admire how my parents organise their account. they have a rigid economy planning.. take a moment and think..my father retired at the age of 45..he worked in a private firm, no pension, my mum is a full time housewife. I have 5 siblings. and worst my brother(and I) are draining the money out. but until now, the money reproduce, and their savings lives on...they can still afford the living.we live in a suburb. I don't know how they do it..but I'll understand it one day... Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah..He took one thing from you and return back gifts that you never realised. hmmmmm....
i've conjure up a scenario of me being a writer... "the art of recycling money" by khairah akarim... coool eh..
my economy teacher was right. a way to make money is money..

p/s: I would like to say something to U.. gunung kalau ditarah hari-hari akhirnya rata juga.*read in the most delicate way*

Tag (episod 2)

2010-06-10T09:33:00.000+08:00

1.Bekas kekasih saya ialah : shia labeouf... pdn muka dia sy tinggalkn dia.

2.Saya sedang mendengar : *cpt2 sy membuka lagu* zikir taubat. astaghfirullahalazim.

3.Mungkin saya patut : tidak membuang masa dan memenuhi masa cuti sek dgn mengikuti jadual waktu belajar dan mengulangkaji dan bersedia utk trial stpm ~~dan meghadapi kegagalan lg....~~

4.Saya suka : bila loceng sekolah berbunyi menandakan waktu balik....yeahh..freedom..

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya : buku-buku sekolah.......

6.Saya tak faham : Kenapa saya perlu menipu dalam menjawab soalan2 di atas ni(kecuali soalan no4).haiihh..

7.Saya kehilangan : diri sy sewaktu sy sedang mencari2 siapa diri sy..

8.Ramai yang berkata : sy seorang pemalu dan baik hati..nagghaghahagkjaghagaaghagajfslahha*evil laugh*

9.Makna nama saya : *terima kasih sy mmg seorang pemalu*.... makna nama sy ialah baik hati ~~lg sopan lg santun..~~

10.Cinta itu adalah : separuh nyawa kt..half my live rest with my family n frens.

11.Di suatu tempat , seseorang sedang : berckp2 dgn saya...sy pn dgn penuh yakin lagi mesra~~menyapa, rupa-rupanya dia bkn berckp dgn saya ttp handsfree on phone.. cilakak.

12. Saya akan cuba : buat2 malu(padahal mmg dh malu).. takpe sy mmg pemalu..

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud : ilmu itu selamanya perlu dicari, Cikg Zulkarnain Agos pnh berkata.."walaupn awak tahu dunia ni nk kiamat sebentar lg dan ada sebiji kacang hijau di tangan,awak tetap kena tanam.."

14. Telefon bimbit saya : dimasuki air dan memerlukan kos rm250 untuk membaik pulih. sesiapa yg terbace blh masukkn duit ke dalam akaun saya. 1672272-xx-xxxx

15. Bila saya terjaga dari tidur : Sy akan lap air liur sy.. tak.tak.tipu je. sy akn bersyukur krn masih sihat dan hidup..~~ok lps tu br sy lap air liur sy.~~

16. Saya paling meluat apabila : mase sy terbuang begitu shj.

17. Haiwan paling comel yang pernah saya ada : mr grey(kucing) yg mati dgn tragis sewaktu berada di bangku sekolah.. mr grey juga telah disemadikan di dpn halaman aspuri sm**. R.I.P

18. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan : 25-40 zaman dewasa krn berumah tangga.. auwww.. *cynically smiling*

19. Hari ini : Saya taknak mandi.

20. Malam ini saya akan : mandi

21. Esok pula saya akan : mandi pada malam hari shj

22. Saya betul-betul ingin : mandi hari ini

23. Siapa yang anda nak tag : Ulfah Lina bt Jasri.

Life should be enjoyed.. not endured

2010-06-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

It is rather weird seeing people who smiles all day along. Aren’t their face muscles tired.? Some smiled in sorrow. Notice those faces who are cheerful and faces that are distress or faces that do not like to smile(no pointing to me).. we can see the difference clearly, those who often chucking and laughing looks radiant, alive and energetic and is not an exaggeration to admit they look far younger than their actual age.
Some of us are fortunate to be gifted with 'smiley face', even at times of anger they still appear smiling. It is difficult to find such faces; it is one in a million.
Just look at those who are affected by dilemma or problems. Their face often looks depressed, stringy and looks older than actual age. Sometimes it is ok for us to grieve and weep. It takes time to heal. But it should not be prolonged. Our soul needs time to rest from the heart’s dismay.

is this a valid smile...?? ngeee me.........

14 interesting facts:

1. Scientists discovered that smiles and laughter is an exercise in a form of internal jogging which can stimulate the body and benefits the brain, nervous system and hormones.

2. Western researchers and practitioners believe that by starting the day with a smile not only enlighten your life but give many benefits to health. When we smile, our whole body system is ‘smiling’ feeling that we are happy. The study showed smiling, slows the sinus blood flow to the brain.

3. When the blood 'is cool' is up to the hypothalamus (the part that controls body temperature and emotions) it produces the effect of 'happy'. In addition, when we smile, we only use 17 facial muscles than 43 when pucker our forehead.

4. A smile is not just a reaction to facial movements, but also connected with the production of endorphin in the brain that reduce physical and emotional pain and makes a person feel more comfortable with themselves.

5. Studies show that people who laugh 100 times within the past 24 hours have the same cardiovascular benefits as exercising 10 minutes. This happens because when we laugh, blood pressure and heart rate increased. But both these rates will fall to a much lower when not in a state of laughing.

6. You also need to realize that children laugh more than adults. Children aged between four to six years of laughs 400 times a day compared to only 15 times a day in adults. Hence no wonder if the adult is more prone to disease and suffer stress and depression.

7. The study made by a group of scientists from the University of California Medical Centre explains, there are two types of 'stress' that is good stress and bad stress. Smiles and laughter are categorized as good stress. Stress is not good to put pressure on the immune system.

8. In the study on two groups of adults has been used as an experiment. The first group were shown humorous stories while the second group was placed in a room without doing anything.
Blood samples taken 10 minutes before and after the study is made. From the results of the blood sample, the hormones increase, hormones such as “endorphins’ and 'neurotransmitters' and decrease the level of stress hormones of ‘cortical’ and 'adrenaline'.

9. When we laugh, cells and tumour of killer virus inside the body will increase in line with the increase in gamma-interferon (proteins to fight diseases), T cells (which is important for the immune system) and cell B (which produce antibodies to fight disease).

10. A smile is also capable of lowering blood pressure, increase the inclusion of oxygen in the blood and this will indirectly stimulate the healing process. Many studies have proven that emotional stress such as depression, anger or anxiety associated with heart disease.

11. A smile that ended with laughter activates body chemistry and indirectly reduces the risk of heart disease, high blood pressure, stroke, and ulcers arthritis. University of Maryland Medical Centre perform a review of the 300 respondents found that 40 percent of those who have less heart disease than healthy people laugh.

12. Smiles and laughter are example of good exercise because it involves the diaphragm, abdominal, respiratory, facial, leg and back muscles. Laughter 'massage' organ in the abdomen and strengthens the abdominal muscles, stimulates both the brain and increase the ability to learn. It relieves muscle tension and psychological stress; makes the brain more alert and ready to receive new information.

13. Laughter is also said to improve intestinal function, thereby improving digestion and absorption of nutrients in the body. It also believes that laughter can burn calories as you exercise a few minutes.

14. Besides providing various benefits to the body, the teaching of Islam itself says, ‘senyuman itu satu sedekah’.. Smiles can be healing in chronic mental illness. Smiles do not need money or energy, only a ‘piece’ of sincere can sweeten a smile. When laughter is shared, it binds people together and increases happiness and intimacy..

Haha... though its hard to see me smiling.....and now .i’m promoting people to smile..cool eh..? :)

Unsung heroes

2010-05-24T10:48:00.000+08:00

A year staying in smkbm has made me a better person inside and out.

heres an excerpt of gratitude to my heroes.. not exactly a poem, it doesn't rhyme. just scribble of thoughts.

When everyone lost belief in me, you gave me hopes.
When i reached the end, you guided me to a beginning,
When everyone thought I am a gone case , you gave me faith,.
You risked your career to keep me on
You guided me for path on and on

A Friend, a mother, a mentor, an idol.
The role you played with curiosity and encouragement,
Your gave me motivation to pursue
The best, and to reject the commonplace.

Your wisdom and grace made me see.
That what I'd choose to seek, I'd surely find;

You shook me out of my complacency.
I thank you now for everything you've done;
What you have taught me I will not outgrow.
Your kind attention touched my mind and heart;
In many ways that you will never know.
I will remember you my whole life through

There are no words can truly defined.
How much you're valued
For the work you do so well.
I may not say it always.
But, I mean it whenever I say it
I love you teacher.

tag yg mencemaskan..

2010-05-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

1) Adakah anda rasa anda hot?
perlukah sy jwb soalan ni..???

2) Upload wallpaper PC/laptop yang anda guna sekarang!

sy xmaju la. sy xreti mcmn nk upload gambar wallpaper laptop ni.

3) Cerita pasal gambar
sy x upload gambar, jd sy xdpt menerangkan apa2... the end..

4) Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza

saya tak suka makan pizza sbb ada cheese.

5) Lagu terakhir anda dengar

Gemuruh Jiwa. Faizal tahir. mengimbau kembali kegemilangan yang tak pnh dikecapi.sedihnya..

6) Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

- sy sedang menyiapkan nota cemerlang ekonomi.. rajinkn sy..

-sy sedang mendengar lagu gemuruh jiwa.

-sy sedang memikirkn motif sy menjwb soalan2 tag ini..

7) Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil nama apa?

~~kay, kecik, tot, baby k.~~ (tidak diiktiraf). panggil khairah shj.

8) Tag 8 org..

Ngn confident ak menulis

8) khairah(nk tag diri sendiri blh x.?)

9) Siapakah orang num 1 kepada anda?
kawan sy yg sudah lama tidak jumpa. juga merupakan kwn yg sama tinggi dgn saya.hahahahaha

10)Katakan sesuatu mengenai orang num 5.

continue with your stpm......

i knoe u cn ace for 4A's

11) Num 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
dgn saye ler.. scandalous... haha. takdelah.blh pass x soalan ni..

12) Bagaimana pula dengan num 4?

ouh. ini senang saje.scandal dia ade dalam kelas sy, tiger namanye..

13) Pesanan buat orang num 6.
Budi bahasa.... budaya kita....(sila nyanyi)..

14) Kata-kata cinta untuk orang num 2.
YM Tunku Aniesh(bukan nama sebenar).. I miss u... i need u to smack my face so that i can get over my stress..

15) Adakah num 7 n 8 mempunyai persamaan.

ade la sikit..cumanya sy ni x seperasan sara...hahaha..kn2 sara yg ~~cantik~~..?

16) Berikan 5 yang anda tahu mngenai org yg tag anda.

nama beliau ialah hazirah radzi. nama sepanyol beliau ialah acicici radzwa.. beliau merupakan kwn sy yg bakal terbang ke espana. saya sgt bangga jd kwn dia(itupn klu dia fly ke sepanyol je)..hahahahaha

17) Persamaan antara kambing dan lembu.

kambing ade 4 kaki dan makan rumput. lembu pula mempunyai 4 kaki dan memakan rumput..persamaan serentak=kambing=lembu. mencapai keseimbangan. ini klu mengikut kira2 ekonomi sy.

18) Perasaan anda buat tag nih.

sy kesal kerana ditanya soalan yang pertama tadi. haiihhhh

19) Adakah anda tahu si Rizman tu sengal?

saya rase si rizman ni mmg berperangai mcmtu.. sy dh berulangkali menasihati dia. tp malangnya sy belum sempat kenal siapa rizman.

20) Gay or les?

blh sy tny blk..? gay or les.?

Teachers are gift

2010-05-04T19:54:00.000+08:00

Teaching, according to me, is the best profession one can pursue; at least a few of your students would make it big in their life – satisfaction is guaranteed! Umpteen times I have seen the joy and the glow in the teachers' eyes when seeing their student's success.I experienced three major exams, and I saw the teachers reactions during the result's announcement.. tears of joy, seeing their kid's achievement.

Teacher’s Day reminds me of some of the brilliant teachers, whom I was fortunate to study under, during my life in SM**. Sometimes I feel bad to have skipped class during the lessons of some teachers – realise their value only now!
I miss Puan Irene.. I miss doing S.A.P.T.E.R(wlupn xpnh siapkn pn). I miss all her shorthand notes. I miss how my classmates and I would constantly imitate her gestures...

THE ANSWER IS IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES>>>>>>>>

all her notes and advice were the so many reasons, I got an A for my SPM Chemistry.

How beautiful it would be, if you could just go back in time, to a time of your choice, and to start again from there – and live your life in a much better way.

and I was again fortunate to connect with some brilliant minds – people who really did more than their bit to keep me and my mates motivated.

and I was lucky to meet couple of teachers, who were not just teachers, but amazing human beings!

Remembering each one of my dear teachers on this Teacher’s Day, with gratitude
I know its a bit too early to wish..To all my teachers...mrs fiza, mr loga, miss muru, mrs maslina, mrs syuhaida, mrs mardziah n en ramlan..

"HAPPY TEACHERS DAY"

2010-04-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

It’s not who you are underneath… It’s what you do that defines you.....

Batman Begins

saya memang berseni...part 1

2010-04-26T19:17:00.000+08:00

ini adalah hasil semasa waktu lapang dlm kelas ting 6.

this drawing depicts life, created by the magnifico kha***h (pls fill in the blanks.hahhahaha)

Life is an unfolding series of event.

the droplets of water surging from the tap represents the time passing.

the tap wont give you any mercy and will keep on flowing whether you desire it or not. similarly,in real life,

no matter how hard you try to stop the time passing by, it will never reverse and keep on moving forward.

the droplets will continue its motion to fill up the tank.

the flow will go to different compartment of the tank. likewise as time runs by, along our journey, we face all sorts circumstances and triumphant that make us who we are today.

we control the power to navigate the steering that determines our fate. and for whatever our future holds are actually the outcomes from our previous action..

to be continue..

voracious eating machine

2010-04-11T14:27:00.000+08:00

last week was a calorie counting and fat gaining event. i had two bbq feast in a week.. one was with the form 6 community, and the next day was at my place with the 'doctors'. i had a great time. though it is hard to gather all the form 6 in any activity. only 8 of us came.

I guess i have to think of another plan for gotong royong masjid nnt. X boleh nak tunggu semua 11 juta rakyat form 6( padahal 11 org je) berkumpul.. gempa bumi agaknye baru boleh kumpulkan semua bdk2 ni.....

lihat aksi pakar2 sedang menyalakan api

makanlah ko bekas2 ayam yg dh terjatuh dan dikutip semula... mmmm..sedap.

the follwing day bersama doktor2 praktikal UKM
mesti anda tertny2 siapa gerangan doktor2 muda ni. sbnrnya ak pn xkenal siapa. tp kawan mak ak. pelikkn boleh pula makcik hajjah ni buat kwn ngn org2 muda ni..(mmg peramah mcm anaknya*vomit*) haihhhhhh lepas ni ak nk cr kwn2 makcik tua la.
ahhh..semua tu tak penting. yang penting ak dpt makan barbecue hari tu.

haisshh.. tgk siapa yg buat 'peace' tu..haihhhh... rosak.rosak.

walaupn seronok tp ak la yg jd mangsa nk menolong kemas segalanya. nasib baik la ko hensem wahai doktor2.. ok kwn2 siapa yg nk kawin dgn bakal doktor blh minta no fon daripada saya..

today is 3rd april..

2010-04-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

FCUK! 6 months of preparations left to 'WAR'.

I want to have a good cry now. let me melt....

Time is definitely my biggest enemy now. No foe is more foul than time wasting.
I don't know why i love to waste time but i guess thats the price I have pay for an exchange with 'FUN'.

I notice my time wasting habit started when i was 16, which is the beginning of my Dark Ages.
I started to mingle around with friends during prep class and chat, talk, bla..bla..when the right thing to do is to study.. warming up the chair and wait until the bell rang at 10.30pm. (balik hostel...zzzzzzz..)
Achieving quite good marks and top rank in class during those years made me comfortable in my 'safe zone'.

And that habit continues to get me until at this very moment.

*sigh*

I know STPM is not a normal easy sap sap water exam just like UPSR PMR SPM whereby last minute study will do. STPM ridiculously covers a wide scope whereby constant study and hard work is a necessity.

I want to change! (I've been saying this so many times until i think this phrase has been getting so overrated! Urghhhhh)It's not that i don't know it's just that it's so freakin difficult to stop myself from going online everyday,playing games and watching tv and laugh out loud when it is 'The Nanny' they're airing.

I miss the old me (this one is another one.....*sigh again* i should develop more meaningful phrase)

It's true that by the declining day, we all are in the state of loss, not we all, but mostly it's me.

I've not been using my time so well nowadays.

I've been wasting them like people who wash their car when they knew it will rain soon.
Like people take their shower without using any shower cream or soap.
Like people eating rice with no dish.
Run while they can ride the motorcycle.
Writing letters while they can send an sms.

ok. enough bullshitting with metaphors.
the fact is..
I know sometime people do have their ups and downs but who wants to be down there all the time?
I know how it feels like to be down there and it's frightening. It's like u are having an endless night down there, with no lights, neither from the moon nor the stars.
When u r down there, it's petrifying because u don't know who is going to save u, when are u going to get out and how are u going to see the light again.

So without further due, i'm off to read something now.
I'm going to read at least a page for one subject tonight.

Good Luck!
Wish for my luck and pray for my success in retaining my glory.

2010-03-30T19:14:00.000+08:00

F.R.E.E.D.O.M

6 letters, one word describes everything

Top Secret

2010-03-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

The 'ace A' top secret plan for my UPS1 which is next week.

6.30am bangun subuh.
7.30am study math T paper1
9.00am rehat+makan sarapan.
10.00am study chemistry.
12.30pm rehat + solat zohor +makan
2.00pm study chemistry
3.30pm rehat
4.30pm study ekonomi
6.00pm minum petang+rehat+makan +solat
8.30pm study math T paper2
11.30pm tidur.
n the list goes on the next day with different subjects.

tgk. ada gaya pelajar cemerlang tak.? *bangga*

But unfortunately it ends up..

bangun tidur, 7.30am..
kemudian..zzzzz......
pukul 9pagi bangkit kembali.
9.30 buka buku chemistry selama 30 minit.
dan 30 minit kemudian.. rehat selama 2 jam. (tgk blaja 30 min rehat 3jam. silap kira2 barangkali.)
ok selepas itu sambung belajar math T. selepas berjaya menjawab beberapa soalan( 2 soalan saje), ak tertidur selama beberapa jam.. hadui.. knp la ak ni. dan jadual belajar hanyalah tinggal kertas sahaja.

haihh..why let me suffer like this. blaja la plis..

once upon a time in a far away land..

2010-03-17T08:03:00.000+08:00

The real-life Sleeping Beauty who snoozes for TWO weeks at a time
By LUCY LAING
She is known to her family and friends as 'Sleeping Beauty' - but her life is no fairytale.
Louisa Ball, 15, sleeps for 14 days at a time because she suffers from an incredibly rare disorder.
She misses school exams, dance lessons and even missed an entire week’s holiday away with the family as she slept the whole way through.

Sleeping beauty: Louisa Ball suffers from Kleine-Levin Syndrome, a rare condition where people sleep for weeks at a time

Louisa, who lives in Worthing, has been diagnosed with Kleine-Levin Syndrome - also known as Sleeping Beauty Disease - where sufferers can fall into deep sleeps that can last for weeks.She first developed the disorder in October 2008 after recovering from a bout of flu.
read more

I wish my once upon a time was like this, no need to hassle about life. dreaming day and night from day to day without bothering things happening around you. skipping school. and the best part of it all is that you don't consume food during the sleeping period, which is the best diet to cut off weight. cool kn.? zzzzzzzzz............zzzzzz.....

*sesuai utk pakcik meor yg suka berjaga malam

Inspired.?

2010-03-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

see, theres always a good reason to workout and burn those flabby fat when you have him.,
Dave Nuku be my trainer pls..I want him! i want him.! he is hot. he is hot.
agagagagagaga

2010-03-05T20:29:00.000+08:00

ooooo.... ahhhhhhh.....ooooooo.....ahhhhh...hmmmm.....hmmmm...

F.A.T

2010-02-27T21:25:00.000+08:00

I envy those skinny b*tches. How I hope i'll get into that shape one day. I've gain weight lately. maybe because of the PMS and tenses that I'm going through. I can't even fit most of my jeans.

Well today I 'ransacked' my attic and came across old photos album.
All this while, i always blame my parents for inheriting me the 'fat' genes. but then. look.look.

my mom and dad.

huh. and now whenever I see my mom in present, my mind wandered what will my shape be at the age 40+. scary you know. and I'm worried if one day i'll get marry... %%$$@%$&

~~So kamu. saya tidak mahu buat anak ok. enough said.~~

Don't read. skip this post.

2010-02-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

I hate people's expectations, i hate when people simply judge me. I hate myself for being negative because i hate when people sees me as a negative person. I don't know, people. I am tired of everything around me. I want to run away. Far away and let my story be another 'once-upon-a-time-in-a-far-away-land' kind of thing.

I am exhausted. Both physically and mentally. i am no more adapt to my study. i no longer have the brain of a 'camera'. i hardly understand what I'm reading. I read 100 times but I still can't manage to grasp the facts. I am tired. I screwed up a lot last year. I failed in so many ways. At times I feel like doing this, and the next day comes with different story. Sometimes I feel like shutting it all up. Move over elsewhere. I don't even feel attached to my interests anymore the way I did before. Sad, right? :'(

If I was in the middle of a bloody war, this would be the exact point when I put my hands up, waving the white flag. i don't know how long i can survive. maybe a month or two perhaps.?

2010-02-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

Dalam kehidupan kita...
Allah akan bagi satu peluang untuk kita berjumpa dengan orang yang betul-betul menyayangi diri kita..sekiranya kita leka..kita akan kehilangan dia buat selamanya..

Tapi kita tak pernah tahu siapa orangnya..
jika kita sendiri tak pernah sedar dan tak pernah mencuba untuk menilai kehadirannya..
mungkin setelah segalanya berlalu dan kita telah kehilangannya..pada masa itu baru kita mula sedar kehadirannya cukup bermakna..

Tapi mungkin kita tidak berpeluang lagi untuk memilikinya..jadi fahamilah hati seseorang itu sedalam-dalamnya..curahkanlah rasa kasih sayang padanya seikhlas hati..

don't get me wrong. i'm not in love. i'm just spreading the goods.

I read a lot more than you think

2010-02-16T10:27:00.000+08:00

The hoo-has surrounding of the 'decision NOT to have the maulidur rasul march' this year in Penang become a controversy. I’m not a politician nor an extremist to talk about it. It just came up in mind to peel this issue. For me even if the federal government did ban, it doesn’t even matter. We muslims should have deep knowledge and ask ourself if the procession was ban, will it be haram and contrary in Islam. I do not find it anywhere in the Al-Quran or As-Sunnah saying that it is a must for a march.

Maybe someone should point out something in the religious text about the celebration to prove me wrong. Before this the government did directed marching function designed to allow a legitimate march on the streets. I am not saying that we should not go marching on the street and shout allegiance to the Prophet, but then again what's the goal.? Or is it just merely showing off that we are good Muslims.?

We must analytically distinguish the difference between worship and culture. Our prophet Muhammad never prompted a PE(sabda) of a parade on his birth. From my point of view, our love to Muhammad is not merely showed through marching but how much our blessings and remembrance to him. Each minute we live, are we remembering him and saying our salawat.? Religion is a very personal thing. I realize as a person I’m too jahil to even spout out these things. But ask honestly to yourself. Is this really what our beloved Rasullullah commands us to do? Or is this just a legitimate political avenue to take on to the streets under a perceived threat in the name of Islam - which I see is going to happen in Penang soon.

A better approach of having Perhimpunan ummah, having special prayers, recounting the life of the prophet are better ways to celebrate our Prophets. Don’t you think.?

Kenapa Saya suka makan pisang.

2010-02-15T20:53:00.000+08:00

This is the gag behind the scene why lately I'm so obsessed to bananas. After reading you'll probably look twice when you see a banana.

Gambar ini bkn tontonan umum, 18 tahun ke atas shj, ok knk2 blh tutup mata dgn tangan.

Stress
According to a survey, most of the patients with stress, recover after eating bananas. Bananas contain Tryptophan, a type of protein that is converted to serotonin in the human body, which gives a feeling of calm, restore your mood and generally make us feel happy. Potassium in bananas is a vital mineral, which helps to normalize our heartbeat and sends oxygen to the brain and balance the water content in the body. When we’re stress, our metabolism will gradually increase, causing the rate of potassium to decrease. This situation can be overcome with the help of high-potassium banana snack.

PMS:
throw away your panadol and get yourself a banana. Banana contains vitamin B6 that helps to neutralize glucose in the blood, and restore your mood. Don’t bother about mood swing as long as you have your banana.

Anemia:
With a high content of iron, bananas can control the growth of hemoglobin in the blood, which indirectly helps in cases of anemia.

High Blood Pressure:
This unique tropical fruit contains a high potassium rates and low-salt, making it the perfect nutrient to stabilize blood pressure.

Mind Power:
200 students at an English school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Results have proven that banana contains a high rate of potassium that can assist learning more efficient and the brain function become more alert. That's the secret of how i got my brain, anyone for exchange.?

Digestion:
High fiber makes banana a balanced diet to help stabilize the process of small and large intestines.

Fatigue:
One of the best way to reduce fatigue is by making a banana milk drink with honey. Banana act as a coolant in the stomach and honey can help rebuild the sugar when blood decreases due to fatigue, while the milk is re-hydration system to refresh us.

Obesity and Working Pressure:
Studies of the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure of work became a catalyst to food intake, such as chocolate and chips. 5.000 based on hospital patients, the study discover that most obese patients are cause by high-pressure work. to overcome this problem, we need to control the sugar in the blood by taking a high carbohydrate foods every 2 hours to maintain a stable rate.

Ulcers:
Banana is very good in the prevention of ulcers because it is soft and does not harm our internal organs. It also acts as peneutral excess acid and reduce pain by acting as a coat in our stomach wall layers.

Temperature control:
Many people said that banana works as refresher, alleviate the emotion of mom candidate. In Thailand, pregnant woman eat banana to make sure that the baby she’s going to birth is in controlled SAD (pre mom syndrome/disorder).

Cigarette & Tobacco addiction:
Banana can help smokers to quit smoking. Vitamin B6, B12, potassium and magnesium found in bananas can help the body to repair the effects of nicotine on the body.

Stroke:
Based on studies in the book, The New England Journal of Medicine, consuming bananas as a daily diet can reduce the risk of mortality from stroke by 40%!

As a conclusion, Banana accounts why monkey is always healthy and happy all the time.

nadira, nabila, nazurah, jalan da...

2010-02-07T12:17:00.000+08:00

meet the khairas' from left: me, khairah nabilah and khairah nadhirah.

Its great having siblings around.
Allies, partners in crime, rivals, friends..

We fought, we patched up, we cried, We laughed at jokes that no one can understand. We said some of the meanest things to each other. We defended each other when others won't. We did some of the humiliating things together and there's so many secrets that we kept as we grew up. And the times when we were scolded by ayah and mummy, we will talk bad things about them behind them to comfort each other.( in simpler word, mengumpat). there are lots of memories that I will never forget.

Literally, time and aging has made us apart. Through some of the harshest times, we became muted to one another.It's hard when you're becoming an adult, its because when you accidentally throw out bad words to each other, there's no turning back, leaving behind scars of anger. and when a person is hurt, she/he need times to heal. Yet through it all, the coldness will eventually thaw and melt away and we're right back to where we've left it, that is, like nothing has ever been missing.

~~I love you Kakak, I love u Abel~~

Eternal love

2010-01-30T12:40:00.000+08:00

My world, my everything, the most charming thing i've met, the funniest, the best of all, the one who'd light me up when i'm feeling gloomy. Just want you to know that I love you. You promised that we'd be back together, right here where I need you the most, right here where my heart is digging six feet under, I just want you to know that i'm hoping you'll keep your promise.

Baby, I miss you so much right now. Even the fanciest of words can't explain how I feel right now. You really are special to me. There are reasons that I love as to why you stand up amongst the others. No one can change you. I can't get you over my head. Every single night I would dream that i'd be right in the messy room, holding you tightly, symbolising that I would never and I would never let you go easily. I may not be what you expect entirely, but heck, if only you understand how I feel about you. My heart's screaming out your name, can you hear it?

Everyday I would go to the mirror and look at myself, , imagining you in my arms, symbolising true love. Maybe you won't care whatever I say, but heck, I just want you to know again and again, over and over, that I love you so much. Little by little I try to forget about you, the more painful I feel. I want to get over this pain and just stand still right here and wait for you to come back to me. Please, keep your promise. But, i'm practically standing on one foot. I can't stand still forever. I realize lately how i've been ignoring you, but love it doesnt mean that i dont care about you. its just that I've been damn busy with school. blame the administrator. I promise i'll get back to you.pls don't leave me.

meet my love, the PSP game console

a year to remember

2010-01-23T10:04:00.000+08:00

Last year was a great year for me. I have the Ups, the Downs, I've met new friends, grasp a lot of new things, think a lot more rationally as well. I learn how to defend my rights. I learn how to trail my own pace, rather than following. I learn the meaning of the word 'FUN'. I'm no longer a serious person(tetttt..)

The year I started blogging. Associating in the blogosphere really helped me in many ways, to ease my misery, releasing the tense. Recently, I am more than aware that my inactive has turned away my invisible readers. No longer am I writing to impress nor am I writing to spread my ideas. From now on, I'm writing because... I feel like it. Back to the roots from which this blog grew from.

2009, a year that I made a few crucial decision. options of the pathway of my future, roads that i should take. and i chose the one less taken. I turned down several offers. Yet, I'm not regretting my choice. I believe that Allah has set good things for my journey..so far I've met great people, friends, teachers, encounter great bloggers.

The year of my failures. In all my life since Primary 1, I never failed. Form 6, Mid-Semester 2, Physics, I fail with 50 marks. Hope my failure doesn’t continue in my final year exam. Failure is indeed hurtful. the pain is excruciating.

Happy, sad, embarrassing moments that happened to me is unforgettable. Year 2009, I learn to love people. I fell for the wrong person. He treated me as his good friend, while I have the wrong perception. Thinking back, I felt so stupid to care about someone who doesn’t has me in his heart. I felt like a loser to love someone. I haven't met him for a long time. Until now, I haven’t confess to him (ouch, I’m such a loser). ahhhh... no I'm not. love is not for me. love is for loser.*im not pointing to u.*

As a person, I am too weak to even have a thought on perfection. I just hope that 2010 will turn out alright for me. Spiritually, mentally and emotionally. And people I'm proudly to announced that I'm officially 19. yes 19.! ngee~

Selamat Hari Tua.

2010-01-10T15:31:00.000+08:00

This post is exclusively dedicated to my number one stalker.. miss nadhirah mohd noh

Happy Birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to nadhirah..
happy birthday to to you.
(sila nyanyi dgn suara yg merdu)

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me, there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So nad, it is with sincere i seek forgiveness for the things i did wrong and the thoughts that should not be, hoping that you'll always see me as your friend, and we are friends for whatever the future may hold.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart

2010-01-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

every time i encounter an Indian guy(the one with the fair look), it reminded me of late Pragash. I remembered his last word to me; He never wanted to be here(in form 6). and seek me if I could help him apply for Maktab Perguruan. He even gave me all his personal detail so that i can fill the form online. and each time I open the folder inside my pendrive. I still has his particular detail. his I/C no, birth certificate no, parents name, spm no.. maybe its time to delete the memories. though short yet meaningful. *mourn*

Zombie ate my holidays.

2009-12-31T22:42:00.000+08:00

My holidays are filled with try out of my zombie busting skills, actually its the Plants vs. Zombies game. Basically, you defend your home from zombies by planting various plants, each of which have abilities such as shooting peas, tossing watermelons, or expelling poisonous gas.

Meor downloaded it first, then a few days later, all the mates were playing in class. The game is sooo cool. Because, man, these plants! These zombies! They are totally addictive, and it's only now, after a full two days of immersion, that I am starting to break away.

What's so great about Plants vs. Zombies?

First of all: cute! The art in the game is really charming; even the zombies manage to look adorable. I mean, look at that guy. With a cone on his head! Silly zombie.

Second of all: grindable! The game has a wealth of things to buy, complete, collect, and otherwise muck about with. It's chicken soup for the obsessive compulsive soul.

It's been a long time since I enjoyed a game this much, and to be honest it doesn't come at the best time. and now I have come to understand how drug addicts feel about drugs. It's not just a compulsion, It's love. It's the beautiful, rich color of a really good scotch. It's the giddy feeling you get when you toast a zombie with your Cob Cannon just as he steps onto your porch. For better or worse, but I think forever, I love to game.

*meor ak xsiap homework psl terlebih main game..siapa harus dipersalahkan dalam hal ini.?

2009-12-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

Best friends are like diamonds,

precious and rare.

False friends are like leaves,

found everywhere

The tradition runs.

2009-12-24T11:23:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to najid for winning the bet.. haha. well actually today is a 'thrill' day for all PMR candidates. The result is out. and lucky for najid, for getting straights A's.
And the tradition of getting straight A's in the Pakcik Karim's family runs. No doubt we are able to get good result, for every exam we children sat, Ayah will certainly ask for our result. good result, he grins+gift.. so so result, a 'brief' talk and a trip to misery, one week of chores, spring cleaning. yada.yada.

Sheesh. but sometimes(most of the times) i made exception for myself. when i attained good result i'll show him. and the one with many Cs and Bs i'll hide them. haha. i shouldn't have mention it here. Its okay keep it low k people.

meet the sablons, from left hj naqib, najid .haha

p/s. to Khair Najid Hj abd Karim(nama komersial baru stlh ayah naik haji, kui3.), congratulations for ur achievement.. u prove me wrong.

A long...long.. journey to an end.

2009-12-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

what will be next..?

sometimes we know how things will turn up to be like, right from the beginning, but we continue to walk the same path. As we approach each step, we pray, hoping that there is an alley somewhere or some miracles will happen. however as we walk closer and closer, we know that we will hit the wall and yet we often walk straight. we will probably regret only after we feel the pain from hitting the wall.this is life isn't it? knowing the consequences and preparing to bear the consequences.knowing how to tell people what to do but not knowing what to do when u r in the scenario. ever been in this situation..? if yes. get help.

A sequel from Wimax Fanatics

2009-12-22T11:09:00.000+08:00

lmao. so ready to 'potong'..?

The need to fill an emptiness inside a hole.

2009-12-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

MON-21st December 2009, a sentimental day in my diary, ayah umi n aqib has safely returned home from haj. We invited them at the KLIA arrival. I am really relieve to meet them knowing that i won’t have to stay home alone again and feeling worried.. no more fuss. No more troublesome. I perceive they came back with new hopes, reforming to become a better person inside out. I saw aqib’s face glowing, clean and clear. A face portraying a new born and knowing his sins have been diminished.

I'm feeling repress knowing that tinge of emptiness is still surfacing me. I’ve left all my deeds of worship towards Allah, sometimes i deliberately left my prayers without an accuse. I’ve left the holy quran and seldom had time reciting it. My soul is empty. I pray from now and onwards Allah will lead me to a ‘life’. hoping i will discharge my responsibility towards my religion, my parents and to myself. I’m searching for tranquility. Appealing for a peace in mind as I embrace each moment. I reckon the world isn’t longer.and people now die at a very young age. I am petrified.

Streamyx Vs P1wimax. who will benefit..?

2009-12-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

The broadcast ads of P1 Wimax broadband had caused a controversy when the word 'cut' is repeatedly highlighted in the ads. When we say 'potong' it is very obscene. The word has a double meaning. Certain of us may understand that the use of streamyx line to be switch to Wimax broadband but for some people, it means that pieces are cut referring to the practice of circumcision in Islam. Later it became a debate in the Parliament.

P1 wimax starting a war promoting the word 'potong' as a symbolic to consumers to cut Streamyx line and use their service which does not require any wires.

Recently, hit backs from streamyx

p1 wimax CEO, Michael Lai
Streamyx responded back with something meaner based on some user's complaint. Although the modem does not show P1wimax logo, but we all know it is a Wimax modem. To exaggerate a threat against p1wimax, not only the modem is taken out but also the laptop. Dramatize!
More interesting is that the model in the ads looks similar to the CEO of P1Wimax itself, Michael Lai. Not sure whether it is done purposely or not. ngahahahahahahahahaha. But wait!. Look at the plug, the LED light is not on. that guy did switch on the current. no wonder it is fatal. hmm.. I smell conspiracy..

And the latest from streamyx,

notice the 'P' sticker is not the usual one. haha. its the 'P' symbol for P1wimax.

Kenapa Percaya Pada yang kurang berpengalaman.?

p1wimax vs streamyx, score 1-2. who will win this battle.? u decide.. hahahahaha

sad as a rat

2009-11-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

Been thinking about my friends that I won't see anymore. I'm not a social person, rarely attending gatherings. Not to mention exceptionally from joining the social network(special case) . hmm.. they are spread out everywhere. Some are in Egypt, Japan and other in the States. Even in Malaysia they are widely dispersed.

My butt is stuck to the computer chair. Trillian is not running. I'm trying to hide. Not from anyone, but from myself.

I need coffee. I need sleep. I need you. Yes you.

A delicate zombie

2009-11-29T10:57:00.000+08:00

It is precisely 3:07 on a Saturday morning over here. It seems that over the holidays, I have miraculously metamorphosized (is there such a word?) from an early sleeper at 10 pm to a veryvery much nocturnal and hungry teenager. I sleep in the day; I’m practically a vampire or something! And I am not proud of it. I’m missing a lot of meals waking up at 3 in the afternoon! I’m barely cutting it close for what the English call ‘high-tea’. No wonder I’m so famished at 2 am.

But I am not alone in my nocturnalism. Ever since the holidays, everyone’s been pretty much asleep during daylight hours and wide awake without the aid of caffeine after hours(especially a friend of mine, naddy the panda). Gee. We teenagers are mutating, aren’t we? Sooner or later, we’d get nightvision. Or like, the ability to conjure food out of absolutely nothing to satiate our midnight thirst for snacks and fried chicken. That’d be radical.

Speaking of holidays, these emergency holidays are starting to bore me out of my cranium. I sort of miss school now. Sort of. I mean, I still despise school homework, impossible-to-flush-at-all toilets and crappy canteen food but I do miss seeing my friends everyday, somewhat fun lecture classes,having lunch where they usually will eat in the classroom itself, breaking the school rule(which i hardly do, but still its cool to watch people do..)

An astonish encounter with

2009-11-26T19:11:00.000+08:00

Fatin Fatehah.. chomz je.. hahaha

occasionally on Saturday i'll be attending tuition classes at 'kasturi'. I arrived at the tuition centre around 2.00 pm, suppose the class started at 2.30pm as usual me being punctual( blgak r). so here I am outside the room, waiting for the class to start. my minds wandered lonely as the clock ticks.

But then someone captivate me. ooohh shiii-iit. i know this person. FATIN FATEHAH BT HASANAL AZAM, my long lost friend from sm*s(i'm allergic to this name). its funny that after for so long studying here, we encountered for the first time. what a small world. happy to know that someone took the same road as I. yeahh..
well, she never changed much, the same old mate from school. and that made me miss all my batchmates. and now i'm regretting myself for isolating and retreating from the society.

AND I know most of them are wondering what happen to me. well Mates, pals, chums, guys, blokes, people I'm pretty much alive, still the same(haven't grown an inch tall). I'm doing my form 6 in school nearby and thinking of pursuing in economics. that's all i can tell for now. we never know what may happen in the future aite.

Families rule.

2009-11-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

i received a call from mum last night. and you bet i was frantically excited. that's the first 'call' ever since she left me for haj. but that didn't made my day. we had an argue of me staying home alone. well, the whole idea was i promised to sleepover at makcik sue's house(the grouchy old neighbour next door). which i did not obey. huh.

I told her I was okay staying alone. Though i had gone through some hard time with cooking and doing some chores. to tell the truth home alone is like married to someone. you need to pay the bills, cook for your kids(aka my brother..sheesh), wash laundries, buy groceries etc. but i'm perfectly fine by my own. i did eventually learn how to cook. which is a good thing. but that didn't alleviate the whole situation. she told me that ayah sangat marah( i can tell that because he refuses to talk to me).

Somehow after the conversation it took me a while to think. and came up with this; Your parents look out for you because they love you. They are protective or possibly over protective and out of concern of your safety. We may think , "they don't trust me!" But is that really it.? They may trust us but not the world. AND sad but true, they may have a point.

The world isn't always trustworthy. Most strangers are nice; some are dangerous.
Which is all the more reason why it's lucky to have parents who care.

Unfortunately, i will still be staying at home. enough said

Failure Require No Explanation.

2009-11-24T13:40:00.000+08:00

No matter how carefully you study a subject, no matter how rationally you make decisions, no matter how well prepared you are, you will occasionally make mistakes. Human beings always do. And failure comes into the picture and worsened the whole situation.

Once again, I screwed another paper, and it is depressing. After my paper was marked, i sat with my teacher where she kind of trying to persuade me over my result. She didn't want me to feel bad or anything. I appreciate it. Thank u teacher. Logically, it will be hard to ace for physics. I know. Realistically speaking. Having said that, I think the best thing to do now is to just let it be. Believe in God's plan. Live life as nothing ever happened. Unfortunately, life doesn’t work that way. Frankly speak its difficult for me to accept the fact that i failed. knowing that this will dismay my parents and teachers whom gave me full support. But at the end of the day, I've learn my lesson not to take for granted over small things.

AND I hope that my parents will understand my situation and not blaming me for taking such decisions. As I am now engrossed in myself and don't really know what i want.

eww,

2009-11-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

A dead roach, ladies and gentleman. A dead roach. What will they think of next?

what misery can lead u to...

2009-10-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

the 'patching' process from a sheet of formulas to.....

tonight is such a fucking gay(haha. is that even an expression.?). it started off well but at the end I mess up everything. tonight suppose to be my mathematics T revision session as next week will be my finals. the good news is the exam is postponed( that's the best part when you are still under the school administration, the timetable are more flexible) the bad news is the paper is set by the Jabatan and more things to be worried.
but my revision turns to be a disaster. let just assume that I was mentally exhausted. and my brain were bloated with all the un-understandable derived formulas. and all the 'fascinating' facts to memorize. sheesh.

I was over reacted and acted brutally by 'accidentally' ripping the text into pages. and now face the consequence......... maths text+stress= sheets of paper..
after regretting my actions i decided its a good idea that i fix the book and so i did. thank u to me, now the book is back to its original state.
my one hour of study turn to a 'cut' and 'paste' session..ngahahahaha.

a complete text guide of mathematics T

makcik kayra yg bijak.

2009-10-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

ngeee~~ today Aishah came to my house. its been a long time we haven't met. and i miss u.! Aishah is my cousin's daughter, so she should call me aunt .. so cute kan..( i really mean me). haha. instead she called me cik nazura.very tak famous la that name. Should teach her call me with more "cool" names. aunt angie , aunt zue? HAHAHA.

I invited her to my room to watch the rerun of happy tree friends, the most violence cartoon in history. hehe baikkn makciknya mengajar. she insisted to eat ice cream in my room.. like hello kiddo.. no foods r allowed in my room k, nnt kotor. i am a clean person after all(yeke.? sejak bile.?)

Being a good mother *ehem*, i brought her to a negotiation.

me: kau nak tgk movie ke nk mkn.?
aisyah: dua-dua
me: mana blh buat dua kerja dlm satu masa.
aisyah: tapi baba kata blh.
me: suka ati ko le.

* as we were watching the series n she was eating the ice cream, i turn off the tv using the remote.*

me: hah! kan ice cream tu dh jatuh kena lantai, tgk tv dh rosak( ade kena mengena ke.?)
aisyah: yeke.? ok la aisyah buang ice cream.
me: *cynically smiling*

haha. that kept her quiet the whole time we were watching the series.

miss u.

2009-10-14T18:25:00.000+08:00

as I was deleting pictures from my camera, I encountered a photo that reminds me of sm*s.(I'm allergic to this name.).
so let me describe it. the must have list.

the lower part-the food stock (includes).
1. roti gardenia+ nutella
2. mineral water (disini mmg kekurangan air)
3. bag to stuff in baju kotor utk dihntr pulang, (shheesh. i shouldnt have told ppl about it. nvm)
4. baju2 yang baru dilipat (khas utk sesi bergambar ini)
5. ribena drinks( yg slalu dipau oleh nazura ehsan)
6. Koko Crunch

the upper part.
1. baju2 yg telah digosok dr rumah.(thank u mummy)
2. air wick odour stop.
3. mentos (utk dimakan di kelas)
3. 100 plus(utk tenaga..perlukah bgtau ini.? takpe).

notice that my locker is different from everyone. (dnt hv sikat, powder, foundation etc. n bla.bla.).. i hearted u locker..
how bout yours..?

Did U know that I Told U.

2009-10-12T14:04:00.000+08:00

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart,

are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others
are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:

• I love you. • I’m sorry. • Help me.

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black,
are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone,
the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing
than saying it to someone in the face?
But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

pet peeves are bullshits

2009-10-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

I’m learning from experience that not all people are nice or easy to be around. In fact, some have habits that just totally get on my last nerve. perhaps a better word to describe, ANNOYING.

I find it annoying When somebody asks you if you’re okay when you are noticeably hurt. Okay. This one's kinda deep. If somebody is lying on the ground, screaming, and can’t move, would you ask them if they’re okay because you're a) concerned or b) truly mystified? I hope you chose a). It happened to me during sports day at the end of the 100m run my ankle once seized up, and I fell(what an embarrassment). A team of PBSM came and asked me if I was okay. I wanted to yell, “Yes, I’m fine. This is how I bake brownies!” Obviously, I was NOT okay. (In case you’re wondering, I'm fine now. It was on overuse injury, apparently.)

Also what irritates me when people make jokes about your height. Like really. Hello? I’m about four foot, nine inches, and I HATE short jokes. It annoys me because, weren’t we all once short? Some people were just lucky to have a growth spurt. I really hate being short, especially since I’m always being made fun of. and at times of family gathering, people always mistakes your age. Remarks like." hah form6..? la igt form2 ke form3.".. zip off people it really irritates me.

and I hate it when parents continually insist for a reason why you are not grinning ecstatically. i am not miserable, i just don't feel like smiling and i don't want to talk. doesn't make me depressed.
when the aforesaid get irritated if you don't have any brilliant plans for the weekend, or continually compare you to your charming, brilliant, ambitious, everyone-likes-him, great-attitude brother. so I'm not trying to save the world. don't keep throwing it in my face.

I'm dis-pathetic with guys who wear their pants low and their boxers high. Do they honestly think that's attractive?! those who always make sexual references to everything--it's so rude!! and boys who have no respect for girls and regard them as mere toys. also boys who gather in flock and distract ladies at public places. its scary u know. so knock it off.

lastly, the biggest pet peeves are when people are constantly negatively complaining and just sound like the type of person who hates the world, and hates their lives and is annoyed by complete EVERYTHING that exists. (I've just describes myself.haha).So, for that reason, I will stop listing now. enough said.

Home Sweet Home

2009-09-28T14:34:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah. last saturday, mum received a good news. finally they are going for Haj this year. Yes. Ayah, Umi and Aqib are going for HAJ. InsyaAllah. I am indeed happy for them. but deep inside theres a feeling of not wanting them to go. A sense of something will happen. its hard for me to intepret whats on my mind.

my whole life as i remembered, i always wanted to be away from my family.
the many reasons for why i studied hard to enter boarding school, and I even once beg my dad to send me to mrsm langkawi..unfortunately, went to science selangor(the nearest yet so far).
and the lies i made to my parents saying 'minggu ni xpulang bermalam' insisting to stay at the hostel during those school days and not wanting to go home.
the idea of casting for cadet officer.(me a cadet?whoaa.. me no discpline) in UPNM so that i seldom stay home.
the intention of why i once ran away from home and giving such accuses, to be away from my parents. yes i am ridiculous + selfish.

but now things change, the consciousness of not wanting to be away from home, overwhelmed me. Ayah also once offered me to go to SAB and approve me to stay at the hostel. But i rejected the idea. I know i will regret it but the feeling of reluctance to leave my home overpowered me.
and now i'm still questioning myself why.? a question without an answer.

if something bad really do happen in the future, pls don't remind me about this post.
*i'm talking to myself, I am mentally sick*

a peculiar side of me,

2009-09-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's wrong with me these few days.

i'm being extremely introvert than before,

i'm being passive in my classes lately.

and very ignorant.

i'm a loner.. retreating from the crowd

my mind can't focus.

my heart says yes and may mind says no.

is this me.? i know this is not me.
my soul are rebelling. but no one hears it screaming.

argghh.. i need a punching bag to ease these confusions(anyone volunteer to be one?)

maybe i need a friend to talk.no.yes.no
*fickle*

i need to see a psychiatrist. give me anti-depressant drugs

migraine2.... please go away...

Wisdom plays a role

2009-09-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

September, 2009 a new chapter.. Today the first day of school after a long holiday.
I'm 75% ready for my classes(the other 15%, still thinking going to bed, takpe). Today, I had my muet lesson on speaking.sigh.. the skill which i hate. straight to the purpose of my post today, about miss muru, my muet teacher aka advisor for the form 6 council. she's a person that always giving you these positive thoughts, meaningful words that boost you. Today, she told us an analogy about the lotus flower.

Lotus grows in muddy places and yet it rises above the surface to bloom with remarkable beauty. The same goes to us, no matter where we are; whether the place is good or not depends on yourself alone. You make your own decisions. We may dislike certain teachers. But the reason we go to school is for ourselves, the person taking the exam are not the teachers but us.

And now, I understand that we must rely on the teacher's message, not the personality, Rely on the meaning not the words, Rely on your wisdom not your ordinary judgmental mind. It took me one day to realise this, teacher. and thank u.

Augest End.. September comes,

2009-09-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'm glad that august just end. last august was a very distress, burn out, displease month(though x start puasa lg). arghh.. i had my exam+lower 6 seminar+ upper 6 math T seminar+some constrains due to nagging of my dad urging me to take tuition classes.
Mentioning about the upper 6 seminar, it was such an embarrassing moment in my life. mana tidaknya, me n ali were the only lower 6 attending the seminar. And we were like blur throughout the seminar. When it came to the answering questions session, the facilitators stared at us, (mcm la kami ni pesalah). Our answer sheets were blanked. The facilitators even showed us working that i could not understand a thing he was writing. I only jot down notes projected on the big screen. and at the end, i told the faci, that we were lower 6.. and he only responded 'kesian'.... hmm.. memang sgt menyegankan.

Bila ada waktu-waktu yang tension sebegini maka akan wujudlah entry-entry yang tak berapa nak Inggeris. Macam ini. sekian terima kasih.

food to tickle you.. teehee.

2009-08-27T16:25:00.000+08:00

A husband and wife came for counseling after 20 years of marriage. When asked what the problem was, the wife went into a passionate, painful tirade listing every problem they had ever had in the 20 years they had been married.

She went on and on and on: neglect, lack of intimacy, emptiness, loneliness, feeling unloved and unlovable, an entire laundry list of unmet needs she had endured over the course of their marriage.

Finally, after allowing this to go on for a sufficient length of time, the therapist got up, walked around the desk and, after asking the wife to stand, embraced and kissed her passionately as her husband watched with a raised eyebrow. The woman shut up and quietly sat down as though in a daze.

The therapist turned to the husband and said, "This is what your wife needs at least three times a week. Can you do this?"

The husband thought for a moment and replied, "Well, I can drop her off here on Mondays and Wednesdays, but on Fridays, I fish.

The Devil that Lived

2009-08-27T02:57:00.000+08:00

when i browsed the internet, my eyes glued on the story of Adolf Hitler
You probably heard it a million times before: Hitler's the most evil man who ever lived. He's the worst this, the biggest that. Probably, worst than Satan.

though, i firmly disagree with this accordance facts. He's good to his people, he fought for his country. Does that make him bad.? As my chemistry teacher once said history were written by the winners. we never knew what really happened on the other companion side(that is the failures).

In other words, much of what we're told, and what we accept as true, is told by a biased Anglo-American system which will not intentionally compare and contrast its own crimes with the likes of someone as heinous and scandalous as Adolf Hitler. Furthermore, in the western society, the fact that the vast majority of Hitler's victims were white adds racial value to the lives that were lost. How do we know this is true? .

Hitler was only one man. One man alone cannot exterminate millions of people unless there are a whole group of people who are behind him and support him. Does that makes him evil?,

For me, he's indeed a superior dictator. A man full of empowerment. I guess it's because Hitler was so recent in history that it seems more horrifying to most people. Hitler was an evil man but he had an evil population ready and willing to commit his crimes and carry out his orders. No despotic maniac---whoever it may be----can achieve their goals unless there is a population behind him that supports it and is willing to carry it out.

i read more than you expect,
indeed a nerd on the net.

*my eyes are sore-nite2 people*
*time 4.09am*

2009-08-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

Sekadar renungan.

2009-08-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

*grab from smss-alumni@yahoogroup.com
H1N1 Case

"Beginner stage
Batuk, selsema, demam, sakit tekak, bila terbesin bunyi tak kuat...

Second Stage
Susah bernafas, simtom macam asthma but not asthma, at this stage if you
touch the person, or breath in the same room 80% boleh kena...masa ni kena
kuarantin... at hospital. Masalahnya sekarang dah ramai yg kena.. hospital
tak cukup katil & bilik kuarantin... Bila u pengsan macam nak mati baru dia
org admitted.macam kes adik I.

Critical
Lung infection. Bila X ray we can see the virus covered the lung. Like my
brother case. Very scary bila tengok x ray tu. At this stage u need oksigen
with highest level, Strongest antivral..very high drug. At least 7 days
oksigen kena bagi. % to recover depend to age, imune badan u. That's why
kalau baby atau budak2 susah nak kata...normally die. My brother hari ni
genap 8 hari..still need oksigen. Kesian dia. Masa tahap critical tu
tercungap2 dia bernafas, sampai menangis..Sampai satu tahap dia berguling
atas simen sbb dah tak tahan...sampai dia give up ..sampai dia blh cakap
lebih baik Allah ambik nyawa dia...Itu lelaki tu..imagine kalau pompuan atau
budak2. We all cuma blh tengok dia dari cermin...tak blh masuk dlm bilik
kuarantin... Dr & nurse aje boleh masuh...siap pakai baju plastik. To support
him, what we did bagi sms, bagi dia alquran biar dia baca so that dia
tenang, bagi tasbih biar dia zikir ingat Allah & bagi Air
yasin...Alhamdulill ah pastu dia ok sikit.Ada hikmahnya... All the family
member unite to support my brother fighting the virus.

Masalahnya hospital swasta tak terima H1N1 case, sekarang ni semua depend
hospital kerajaan yg most of the doctors still young . The oldest dr in my
brother ward was 28 years. All the Otai dah pergi private. Lepas tu plak
this is the first time to treat H1N1 patient. At the same time dr bz with
other case as well...1 doktor 5 patient...kat gov hospital...kesian dr2
tu...berhempas pulas nak selamatkan patient. I appreciate them, mmg very
appreciate dia org jaga adik i dgn baik sekali..So far hospital Ampang is
the best goverment hospital yg i jumpa..very efficient.Very quick action
..Even senior dia org dah pergi private & they don't have much experience ,
dia org tetap work hard give the best treatment to the patients..sampai tak
balik rumah...tidor kat hospital.

Rasa nak peluk & cium dia org sebab selamatkan adik I...Thanks to Allah

DMU tak best lah lepas nie....sunyi sepi. Take care & be careful with H1N1.
Virus tu very strong...sape kena...memang suffer nak recover...No
vaksin..cuma ada antiviral & our mental warrior to fight them. Very genius
virus..Can hide in our body...difficult to detect. Only can detect thru swap
which the cost is 1K above. Unable detected in blood as well. When they
start action...Can kill the person if the body imune does not strong. For
those have baby atau anak2, U & ur family do not go to crowded place, better
wear mask when u outside from home. The vaksin will come to Msia in Nov-Dec.
So far yg I nampak..hanya lelaki dewasa can fight the virus...woman might be
70% , children most probably will die.

Happy Eid Mubarak

2009-08-23T18:11:00.000+08:00

In line with the six pillars of eeman or faith and the 5 principles of Islam we muslims should believe in and do fast during ramadan.We will have sins if we disobey our obligation

By fasting is a way to show our faith to ALLAH SWT. not only that, we'll be rewarded by Allah:-

all sins will be forgiven by Allah

we will be heathier

we will have more endurance physically and mentally

we will be more nearer to Allah

we will be more having social feelings because we avoid hungry ,sex and thirsty during the day

we will increase good doings by helping the poor people and worshiping more to Allah during ramadan

we will have sinless and increase our taqwa to Allah

we will accept a night of lailatul qadar which is better than 1000 months

InsyaAllah, Selamat Beramal.